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mind killer

its unusual for me to stay awake on tis time,
normally i was sleeping on my warmth bed,
dreaming my prince charming...

but today is a different day..
duno y i din feel sleepy at all,
even though its already 1am

many things pop out in my mind..
chee always says i m too sensitive,
i always like to think negatively,
i always like to think tis n tht,
but everything tht i thought is relate to our future,
even though it hasn't happen,
but it doesn't mean it won't happen!!

why can't he understand??
why cant he become more mature??
why i m the only 1 tht always worry tis n tht??
i wonder did he ever think of our future??

but lately he did treat me well,
become very caring,
and he made commitment with me,
and he said he will try his best to do it,
i hope he can keep his words..

whenever u think of our future,
it always become a blank page,
imagine a guy which already 24 yrs old,
gonna turn 25 next year,
still so immature, still no saving,
can commit to him for the rest of my life??

sometime i felt like i m very realistic,
but ppl r realistic,
since marriage life is abt commitment,
is about sense of security,
for me no house means no sense of security,
but the most important is his immature!!
how to build our own family in future??

i duno wad to do n wad to say anymore,
these thought are killing my mind!!
its gonna boom soon!!

should i continue??
or should i let go??
tis retarded relationship..

with l0ves۰•
theng

12:59 AM | Saturday, November 7, 2009 | 0 Comment