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朋友与我...

以前当别人问你朋友与我，
你会毫不犹豫地选我，
现在的你却毫不犹豫地选择朋友，
我应该感到开心的，
因为你是个有情有义的人？
可是为什么一点开心的感觉都没有？

外面的烟花声证明了马来人新年的到来，
也显示了马来人们喜悦的气氛，
然而却一点也感染不到我。
一个人面对着四面冰冷的墙，
一个人听着悲伤的情歌，
一个人在一间空荡的家，
我应该感到开心，
因为我可以为所欲为

有谁能够明白我的感受？
曾经觉得很幸运能够遇到你，
曾经以为我什么都不用说，
因为总有一天你会明白的，
曾经认为你是我的指南针，
曾经的曾经，如今变成往事，
希望可以回到过去那个单纯的我们
可能吗？

我现在才明白，
原来我是一个不被重视的人，
哈哈，真可悲...

with l0ves۰•
theng

1:26 AM | Friday, September 10, 2010 | 0 Comment

to do..

my blog was dead for few months =x
was busy with my study life lately,
was offered by government to study teacher course,
which i wished for so long,
although the course is not as wad i wished for,
but teaching in kindergarden is almost the same
as teaching in primary school (i guess),
wad to do? since i had been offered to teach kindergarden .__.

there is a huge gap between me and dafeiyangq,
since i got tis teacher course offered,
and since he changed his job,
he is working as a "supervisor" in a factory,
and he is very busy for his work everyday,
included saturday and sunday .__.
and he started to smoke since he changed tis job,
or mb b4 he changed tis job??
i was disappointed with him coz he knew i super duper hate ppl smoke!
he promised not to smoke in front of me,
but i still cant accept the fact tht he is smoking! haihs..

due to both of us r in our busy life,
we lack of communication,
and we always quarrel,
bcoz he smokes? bcoz he busy?
bcoz my temper? bcoz we r in different line?
i am a future teacher, and he smokes -.-
and he talk bad words..
problems keep occuring and we din overcome it,
we seem like nth now, but how abt future?

yday he told me tht he has to learn many things in short time,
coz his boss feels like his fren is better than him,
although he work longer than his fren,
i duno y his boss got such feeling?
juz bcoz his fren noe more machines than him?
then how abt admin jobs?
he seems nth when he told me these things,
but i can feel tht he is very stress from his voice,
he is trying so hard for our future (i guess? or mb his future?),
and how abt me? what can i do?
i was like keep blaming him for being busy,
i cant even help him anything,
the only thing tht i can do is to stay by his side,
and support him no matter wad (not included smoking)

he always keep his problem and face it alone,
mb he duwan me to worry him,
and i feel so guilty for not helping him,
and still need him to worry me,
i juz hope tht he is not giving himself too much pressure,
and hope he know that i will always support him :)

with l0ves۰•
theng

10:41 PM | Wednesday, September 8, 2010 | 0 Comment