Ai Theng

朋友与我...

2010-09-10T01:26:00.003+08:00

以前当别人问你朋友与我，
你会毫不犹豫地选我，
现在的你却毫不犹豫地选择朋友，
我应该感到开心的，
因为你是个有情有义的人？
可是为什么一点开心的感觉都没有？

外面的烟花声证明了马来人新年的到来，
也显示了马来人们喜悦的气氛，
然而却一点也感染不到我。
一个人面对着四面冰冷的墙，
一个人听着悲伤的情歌，
一个人在一间空荡的家，
我应该感到开心，
因为我可以为所欲为

有谁能够明白我的感受？
曾经觉得很幸运能够遇到你，
曾经以为我什么都不用说，
因为总有一天你会明白的，
曾经认为你是我的指南针，
曾经的曾经，如今变成往事，
希望可以回到过去那个单纯的我们
可能吗？

我现在才明白，
原来我是一个不被重视的人，
哈哈，真可悲...

to do..

2010-09-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

my blog was dead for few months =x
was busy with my study life lately,
was offered by government to study teacher course,
which i wished for so long,
although the course is not as wad i wished for,
but teaching in kindergarden is almost the same
as teaching in primary school (i guess),
wad to do? since i had been offered to teach kindergarden .__.

there is a huge gap between me and dafeiyangq,
since i got tis teacher course offered,
and since he changed his job,
he is working as a "supervisor" in a factory,
and he is very busy for his work everyday,
included saturday and sunday .__.
and he started to smoke since he changed tis job,
or mb b4 he changed tis job??
i was disappointed with him coz he knew i super duper hate ppl smoke!
he promised not to smoke in front of me,
but i still cant accept the fact tht he is smoking! haihs..

due to both of us r in our busy life,
we lack of communication,
and we always quarrel,
bcoz he smokes? bcoz he busy?
bcoz my temper? bcoz we r in different line?
i am a future teacher, and he smokes -.-
and he talk bad words..
problems keep occuring and we din overcome it,
we seem like nth now, but how abt future?

yday he told me tht he has to learn many things in short time,
coz his boss feels like his fren is better than him,
although he work longer than his fren,
i duno y his boss got such feeling?
juz bcoz his fren noe more machines than him?
then how abt admin jobs?
he seems nth when he told me these things,
but i can feel tht he is very stress from his voice,
he is trying so hard for our future (i guess? or mb his future?),
and how abt me? what can i do?
i was like keep blaming him for being busy,
i cant even help him anything,
the only thing tht i can do is to stay by his side,
and support him no matter wad (not included smoking)

he always keep his problem and face it alone,
mb he duwan me to worry him,
and i feel so guilty for not helping him,
and still need him to worry me,
i juz hope tht he is not giving himself too much pressure,
and hope he know that i will always support him :)

again..

2010-03-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

been constrained for a long time,
trying to stop myself from blogging,
i noticed that my blog was full of unhappy things,
should post some happy things here,
but happy memories do passed quickly,
why sad memories always motionless??

lately, emotion turns up and down easily,
can be happy at this moment,
but few seconds later, become very down.
is it because of the work pressure?
or is it because of...........

lately, sky keep raining,
is it because it knew my feelings?
or is it the end of the world coming??
water accompany me all the times,
is it tears? no! its not, just too much water..
have to release some for it to become balance

lately, many thoughts appeared in my mind,
good and bad thoughts mixed up,
made me felt dizzy, my head gonna exploded,
am i thinking too much?
yes, you always said so and always sing that song,
but you never continue the lyrics..

lately, love to download songs,
maybe songs are the only thing i can rely,
songs can release ones stress,
and also provide physical and mental relaxation :)

m0r0se

2010-03-06T20:34:00.003+08:00

although its weekend,
but i totally no weekend mood,
coz i hv to work on Saturday and Sunday!
super sien!!

lately, sch hving exam,
tht means more works to do,
coz hv to mark,
mark till i very pek cek,
coz its very hard 2 giv marks .__.
i hv virtually become very hot temper

no ppl will understand how i feel,
sometime i think its good for me not to exist,
it might be the best solution to avoid quarrels..
sometime favouritism do exist,
both working, but y i cant tired, another one can?
y i cant nap at afternoon, while another can?
y i m the 1 tht always get scolded??
i m the one tht woke up early to work,
while another's working hours is totally diff..
why??!!!!!

work place is like a battlefield,
everyday reach office den work non stop,
time not enough use..

house is like a hotel,
full of cold and cheerless,
my room is the warmest place

disappointed, despair, morose..

leaving..

2010-02-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

gonna leave KL tomorrow,
gonna leave Malaysia tomorrow,
heading to Hatyai, Thailand tomorrow..

was excited and happy for tis family trip,
tis time go with my dad's best fren and his family,
i think it will be a nice trip :)

but y??
y i felt so down now?
y my mood keep swinging??
y i was tired but cant fall asleep??

the longer the time,
the more problems occur..
the more stupid excuses..

i will enjoy tis trip,
i will be happy after i come back :)
yes, i knew i would..

crazy day

2010-02-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

first time went out wit frens during cny,
went out wit li ling and xiang ling,
first time went to so many shopping center in 1 day,
went to Times Square, Sungei Wang, Pavillion, Megamall

planned to watch movie de,
but the queue super duper longgg!!!
even we went for so many shopping center oso cant buy any ticket,
all sold out or selling fast .__.

but we do enjoyed ourself very much,
by taking photos through those shopping centers,
got abt 200 plus photos in my camera,
xiang ling oso took some photos =x

not we zi lian,
is juz a way to spend our time,
since 3 of us super free,
and oso bothered by some wu liao thgs

its fun to go out wit frens sometime,
although its abit crazy and tiring,
but i was happy when i hanging with them,
at least i no need to bother so many thgs at the moment :)

happy plus crazy day,
the consequence of it = legs pain .__.

Happy CNY & Velentine Day

2010-02-14T23:17:00.001+08:00

first year valentine and Chinese New Year r in the same day,
another year cant celebrate valentine with him,
mb he felt relieved coz no need to think wad to buy,
or no need to fan how to celebrate??
but i think as long as he treat me good,
its already ok liao, rite?? maybe..

went to my grandma's hse at Jhor Bahru for reunion dinner,
saw many free pretty fireworks,
those fireworks like no need money like tht,
so many and so beautiful,
was thinking if watch at beach will be more romantic :)

came back to kl on Chu 1,
was super tired coz fall sick =.=
cough, sore throat and a bit fever,
bought some medi to eat,
hope it will recover soon .__.

was so upset coz my hp dropped on the floor,
it has a crack at the screen,
consider big crack coz from left to right T__T
so heart pain to see it when i use my hp,
but still hv to use it coz no money to buy a new 1 .__.

tis cny will be very bz,
coz 2ml is daddy's birthday,
chu 3 mb go out shopping,
chu 4 mb go chee's hse bai nian,
chu 5 - chu 8 need to go Hatyai..

cant wait to go Hatyai,
coz i wana buy many thgs =x
n oso wana eat many thgs~~~
hope cough and sore throat will leave me alone!!!!

thrilling day..

2010-02-10T23:08:00.002+08:00

juz came back from hospital,
i m fine and healthy,
one of my beloved person went into hospital,
luckily he is ok now..

one day experienced happy coz went shopping b4 tht,
den become worried and ancious,
tears was like a tank of water in my eyes,
hv to keep tahan n tahan not to let it drop,
lastly become relieved..

luckily it was juz a false alarm,
but i hope he learn his lesson,
i really hope he will change his bad habits,
juz for his own good and for his health..

t00th fairy

2010-02-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

went to watch tooth fairy after work with dafeiiyangq,
coz today is Federal Territory Day,
n its KL's holiday,
too bad my working place is under Selangor,
so i hv to work .__.

its a bit rush for me since i finished work at 1.05pm,
reached home around 2pm,
den wait chee come my hse,
my head felt dizzy, mb i din sleep well last night,
so i took a nap b4 we go to watch movie =x

tooth fairy was nice,
but we missed some part,
coz we were late =x
but overall was nice and funny ^^

after the movie, went to eat dinner,
pity chee never eat anythg since morning =x
after dinner, he asked me drive back home .__.
so nervous and scary, but luckily nth happen..
kakaka.. reached home safely,
and still manage to catch up my tuition class :)

had a nice day,
although the day b4 was a bit angry with chee,
but after i told him how i feel,
he do change a bit for it,
and he do made effort to come n find me,
although he drunk last night for his company annual dinner,
juz hope tht its not temporary =x

Jogoya..

2010-01-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

went jogoya with my sisters and frens,
went there to celebrate pik yean's birthday,
but i think the main point is to take photos??
hahas, coz we took many photos~~

tis is my 1st time to jogoya with my frens,
last time went there for company hi-tea,
with my colleagues =x
but tis time was super duper fun and happy :)
we ate many many food!!
until wana vomit =x kakaka..

after our dinner buffet,
we went to starhill walk walk,
and took some picture at pavillion,
too bad pavillion was closed,
if not we can go inside take photo .__.

we enjoyed our nite very well,
love u all very much~~ <3

#1. yin wan, orange, ai wei, big sis, pik yean and me :)

#2. nice and sweet photographer_ai wei ^^

#3. the birthday girl_pik yean <3>

#4. a big kiss for the birthday girl <3

#5. glad tht she love the gift :)

busy night

2010-01-31T02:46:00.003+08:00

juz reached my beloved home,
although i felt super duper tired,
my eyes was closing and whole body was no energy,
but i do enjoy my day with my frens and sisters :)

juz now afternoon abt 1pm,
went to saloon with Ai Wei and Pik Yean,
after keeping my hair for 3 months,
finally get my hair cut =x
3 of us love our new hair style very much <3

#1. bye bye long hair, welcome short hair :)

night time about 7pm,
went to Mei Yee's house's buffet dinner,
she is going to marry tomorrow,
i can c the joy from her smile and her face :)
i can feel her happiness,
although a bit envy she can so fast marry,
but i think i m not suitable for marriage life =x

had a good night gathering with Kuen Cheng girls :)
saw many secondary frens that lost contact after we graduated,
some been ages never c them =x
all become prettier and very lovely,
took many lovely photos with them :)

#2. Kuen Cheng girls ^^

reached home around 11pm,
da jie and ai wei waited me to go Kim Gary,
really thanks them for waiting me,
coz they knew i very desperate to eat the free food =x
wakakaka.. it was so damn nice,
we went to Sunway's Kim Gary,
coz it opened till 1am mid night,
enjoyed our supper there coz dad n mum went back kampung =x

#3. monthly free food :) *yummy*

as usual, dafeiiyangq unable to find me,
coz of little rain?
coz i went out?
coz he tired?
coz i busy?
coz too late??

i do plan to meet him after came back from Mei Yee's house,
but then he said wana meet me on Monday coz its KL's public holiday,
n he tomorrow has to attend company's annual dinner,
but i hv to work on Monday and hv to work at night oso,
i was a bit unhappy, coz i macam hv to give in my time for him,
mb i think too much? but i really tired if hv to meet him on Monday,
and the weirdest part is i macam no feeling...

anyway, i do enjoyed my day :)
thanks to my beloved friends and sisters,
<3 u all!!

~ tomorrow night is Jogoya night :) ~

waiting..

2010-01-27T23:06:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is thursday,
tht mean i hv to wait 2 more days,
den only can reach saturday and sunday .__.

didn't rest well during last weekend,
coz got replacement class and hv to stay back to attend seminar,
den night hv to attend wedding dinner,
sunday whole day at home playing maple private server =x
so tiring leh .__.

tis weekend will be a busy weekend too,
coz tis saturday need go saloon hv a hair cut,
night hv to go fren's house coz got buffet dinner,
sunday mb will free if chou fei yang doesn't find me,
but sunday night is the most happy time i am waiting for~~
coz its Jogoya night xD
can go there eat non stop and drink non stop =x
wuahahahahahha!!

sobs sobs T__T
weekend faster come~~
i am waiting for u .__.

回到原点...

2010-01-26T00:12:00.001+08:00

没有所谓的甜言蜜语，
只是简单的关心，
就足以动摇心里顽固的石头，
石头就这样融化了。。。

所有问题都解决了？
我们好像回到原点，
回到最初的我们，
这样的我们能维持多久？
答案是：不知道，
过的一天算一天吧 :)

可能是工作压力让我最近这么悲观，
这是个借口吗？也许是？也许是事实？
不好意思让周围的人也觉得困扰，
可是我就是不能控制我这个性格 -.-
希望新年快点到，
然后可以跟家人到泰国散散心 :)

enjoyable night, anxious sunday

2010-01-24T11:36:00.002+08:00

went to attend chou wei chao's wedding dinner,
his wife is super duper pretty!!
really wonder y she will choose him =x
wakakakaka, joking =p

drank some red wine in tht wedding dinner,
took some photos with my ex colleagues,
saw some unwanted persons,
but those persons being ignored by me =x

we went for second round after the wedding dinner,
they chose a pub at Jalan Loke Yew,
tis is the 1st time i go pub with my frens,
very enjoyable and drunk =x

the stupid ppl never ask den took 12 bottles carlsberg -.-
but 2 of my frens cant drink,
another 1 guy need drive, so he oso cant drink,
left me n another fren drank abt 10 bottles -__-

was wee wang wang when i walk,
my fren keep laugh me cant walk straight line n said i already drunk,
i admit i was abit dizzy,
but i still noe my name and the fingers they show -.-
and also the way back home D:

yday was abit upset coz chee actually wana come fetch me,
but he said his place was raining heavily,
den i went to second round,
i asked him to join me but he reject,
i really dislike he always reject to join my frens

i was abit angry yday, but wad to do??
he said late, den din come,
does tis has other meaning??
i asked him whether will come on sunday?
he said yes, den i asked him to think carefully,
i duwan to be dissappointed again!!
he said he will come,
ok, if he doesn't come, i will ignore him forever!

i hate sunday!! super hate!!
i saw something unhappy,
i had tis anxious feelings,
at least weekdays i was able to busy with my works,
and able to stop my mind from thinking these nonsense

how i wish today was yesterday,
at the time i had fun together with my frens...

Two is Better than One

2010-01-17T21:01:00.003+08:00

Singer: Boys Like Girls (feat. Taylor Swift)

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought hey
You know this could be something

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true,
That I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time,
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two,
Is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true,
That I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time,
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two,
Is better than one

i thought its ok to be alone,
i thought its ok without him,
but i think i am wrong??
maybe, perhaps two is better than one??
really? i duno the answer....

背对背拥抱

2010-01-17T02:23:00.003+08:00

林俊杰 _ 背对背拥抱

作词: 林怡凤
作曲: 林俊杰

话总说不清楚该怎么明了
一字一句像圈套
旧帐总翻不完谁无理取闹
你的双手甩开刚好的微妙
然后战火再燃烧

我们背对背拥抱
滥用沉默在咆哮
爱情来不及变老
葬送在烽火的玩笑

我们背对背拥抱
真话兜着圈子乱乱绕
只是想让我知道
只是想让你知道这警告
只是想让我知道
只是想让你知道爱的警告
只是想让你知道爱的警告

我不要一直到形同陌路变成自找
既然可以拥抱就不要轻易放掉

最近爱上这首歌，
格茨非常有意思，
再加上使用钢琴弹奏，
非常好听的旋律..

放开？？

2010-01-16T21:56:00.003+08:00

这种感觉不断地浮现在我心里，
很讨厌这种感觉，
让人很不安、让人很烦恼，
是我太过没有安全感、要求太高？
还是他太过放心、根本不在乎？

为何以前一个星期可以来找我两次，
如今却只能来一次，有时甚至两、三个星期才来，
下雨没办法来，我没话说，
今天呢？明天约了朋友就不能来？
以前第二天要做工，你都能来，为什么？
每当我问你为什么，你都给不到我一个答案，
你只说不一样了，说我每次拿这个问题来吵，
问题是你给不到我一个答案！
为什么？！为什么？！为什么？！

如果你真的觉得很累，
或你觉得跟我一起你很辛苦，
我希望你不要勉强你自己，
因为我觉得很辛苦，
有时我觉得我一个人可能会更好，
可是你叫我不要想得那么悲观，
是谁让我觉得悲观的？？

为何最近一直有想过要放弃的感觉？
是因为心淡了？还是因为心死了？
如果心死了，为什么会感觉到痛？
我讨厌我的心软，我讨厌我的犯贱！

最近工作很多，压力很大，
我知道你尽量安慰我，
可是我要的是你在我的身边，
而不是通过空气里的接触与交谈，
你永远都不会明白...

想放开，却又放不下，
想走掉，却又回头，
想说两个字，却说不出口，
这都是因为我心里还有他？
还是已经习惯有他？
很烦，很烦，很烦...

updates

2010-01-10T21:52:00.002+08:00

been abandoned my blog for so long,
all bcoz of my job .__.

too many workloads,
until i dun wish to go to work on the next day,
i am afraid of work .__.

everyday has new thgs to do,
and hv to finish it as soon as possible -.-
stress is keep on raising,
but i still hv to go on..

tis yr onwards,
Monday till Friday night hv to work oso,
its damn tiring,
but i need money .__.

haihs..
wad to do??
how i wish i could married a rich man,
den i no need to work so hard .__.

holiday mode__off

2010-01-04T21:38:00.002+08:00

tis is the day of sch reopen,
tht means i hv to pack my holiday mood,
and prepare to work .__.

i already used of woke up late,
suddenly hv to change my time to 6am,
its very hard for me to change my waking time =x

work was like tone of it,
coz tis yr is unlike last yr,
hv to do many many many things .__.

i will definitely miss my holidays,
i wish chinese new year faster reach =x
am i too greedy???
kakakaka.. =x

special christmas

2009-12-25T19:10:00.003+08:00

was abit down yday,
luckily my lovely kai didi accompany me 2day,
he said his gf gave him permission to come out wit me -.-
hahas, wad a good didi i hv =p

we went to megamall,
queued for so damn long for 2 movie tickets,
we watched "Alvin & The Chipmunks 2",
it was nice and funny

after tht i intro Sushi Zanmai for him,
coz he said his gf loves to go Sushi King,
i told him Sushi King is sux if compare with Sushi Zanmai,
but it was damn long queue when we reached Sushi Zanmai,
den i brought him to Sushi Zen, which is subsidiary of Sushi Zanmai

we chat a lot abt our lives and ppl around us,
after tht we shopped around,
but he seen prefer to go to look at the feng shui thg,
so i accompany him to the feng shui shop,
at the end i bought 2 feng shui thg,
n 2 more for dafeiiyangq's xmas present ^^

although i abit upset tht dafeiiyangq cant accompany me,
on tis very lovely christmas,
but i am glad tht i hv such a good kai didi,
n thanks to his gf for giving him permission =x

wish u all..

♪♫•¨•.¸¸♥¸¸.•¨•♪♫•¨•.¸¸♥¸¸.•¨•♫♪•¨•.¸¸

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平安夜

2009-12-24T23:55:00.002+08:00

还有几分钟就是圣诞节了！
今年的我完全没有圣诞节的感觉。

好怀念college时期，
一大半朋友跟宝仪的哥哥的朋友，
上云顶，到Sungei Wang，到Bangsar倒数，
然后一起去喝茶和喝酒，然后交换礼物

以前college时期与朋友住在外面，
每年的圣诞节都会限定礼物的价钱，
然后在平安夜那天到BRJ喝茶，
到了12am就到草场谈天，
结果被人家骂，甚至丢水罐 =x
然后才甘愿回家交换礼物 :)

像当年还在玩maple的日子，
每逢接近圣诞节就会有圣诞村，
我们都会到那里走走，而且会SS(拍照)留念，
一起谈天，一起升级，
到哪里都有朋友的陪伴

如今的我，
没有了读书时期，
没有了打机的日子，
朋友们都各忙各的或者有了自己的朋友，
让今年的圣诞夜变得格外陌生。

一个人的圣诞夜，
显得格外平静与安静..

W0nderful H0liday

2009-12-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

been long time never update my blog =x
coz been bz with tuition class,
and hanging out wit my lovely frens ^^
here is a simple update of my holiday life :)

9 Dec 2009
i finally met lovely loz loz at Sungei Wang,
she become prettier than b4,
din mean she was ugly b4 -.-
we had our lunch at Kim Gary with siew chin,
den we walk around and took some photos ^^

10 Dec 2009
i finally bought a laptop for myself,
coz Acer got xmas promotion,
the seller said its quite cheap and nice,
i quickly pay deposit to buy the lappy,
coz i wish to buy a lappy long time ago,
n tis lappy is my beloved color_blue (abit dark)

11 Dec 2009
met dear cheng and li ling,
coz ling suddenly said wana sing k the day b4,
so we decided to go Sungei Wang's GreenBox sing k,
as usual, we had our lunch at Kim Gary but abit rush,
enjoyed our time singing together and took some photos :)

13 Dec 2009 & 14 Dec 2009
went Genting with dafeiiyangq
and oso met poh yee, coz she working at there temporary,
Genting was cold, but i love cold,
unlike dafeiiyangq =x kakaka
we went to casino, plan to win uncle lim's money,
but end up lose to uncle lim,
its a relaxing trip since we din go theme park ply =p

18 Dec 2009 & 19 Dec 2009
went to Melacca find turtle soh mei,
been ages never meet her, damn miss her!!
she brought us go eat nice food,
whole trip juz keep eating and eating and eating =p
but the weather so bad, disrupt our plan and schedule,
spent many times inside the house coz of heavy rain -__-
but i do enjoy hanging out with them ^^
miss Melacca trip and definitely will go Melacca again!!
** btw, my blacky car was sent to my hse on 18/12, love it very much ^^
but i still need to practice my skill =x

20 Dec 2009
went Kim Gary again with pik yean and ai wei,
while eating our dinner, we took many funny photos,
by making ugly post and ugly look =p
den we shopped at Jusco b4 we head back home,
it was a fun and delicious dinner :)

21 Dec 2009
finally met ben ben yin wan,
we went to Megamall and watched 2 movies in 1 day,
we watched "the princess and the frog" & "storm warriors 2"
the 1st movie was damn nice and funny,
the 2nd movie was so so only, coz like din hv ending -.-
after 2 movies, we had our dinner at Sushi Zanmai,
The Gardens' xmas decoration is very pretty,
we took some photos b4 we head back home

- the end of my w0nderful h0liday -

h0liday life

2009-12-04T13:19:00.008+08:00

been abandoned my blog for a long time,
been busy even though school holiday started,
i still had to go to sch at the first week of school holiday,
coz of the school hall's donation ceremony :(
but i enjoyed during the day (29 Nov 2009),
coz i took many photos with my colleagues and students :)

#1. school hall's donation ceremony on 29 November 2009

#2. love tis cutie little girl very much <3

#3. my colleagues~~

#4. after the ceremony, very happy and super tired!!

#5. nice group member with a great leader :)

my holiday mode is [ON] after the donation ceremony,
but i was busy with some random stuff,
part of it is about earning money by teaching tuition and so on,
and part of it is slacking, watching tv, playing facebook =p
another small small part of it is hanging out wit my frens ^^

#6. meet lao gong_Lee Sun at Sg Wang on 21 Nov

#7. Sungai Besar 1 day trip with my family on 22 Nov

#8. welcome new member_DuoDuo on 24 Nov

#9. nice karaoke session with colleagues at Cheras Selatan on 25 Nov

#10. Taman Botani (Pertanian) 1 day trip on 28 Nov

#11. hanging out with colleagues at Sg Wang and Times Square on 2 Dec

#12. hanging out with uni fren at Sg Wang and Times Square on 2 Dec

i tought tis school holidays will be very bored,
but its totally different from what i thought,
my holiday seems like passing very fast,
now only left half month holiday

next week onwards is the begin of my true holiday,
next Monday will go out with my ex colleague_Siew Chin,
next weekend will go Genting with chee,
next next weekend will go Melacca with my uni frens,
after tht i will be very free i think,
xmas mb will stay at home be a guai guai lui =p

i wish next week faster come,

i wish next next week faster come,

i don't wish next next next week so fast reach,

coz i hv to go back sch on the last week of holiday,

haihs, den it will be sch opening after tht .__.

心

2009-11-16T21:16:00.006+08:00

百年不读e-mail的我，
刚才突然心血来潮检查我的hotmail，
被我发现一篇很有意义的文章

是一篇关于知足天使与贪婪恶魔的故事，
话说有一个老恶魔想扰乱人间幸福的人们，
他派了小恶魔去人间打扰一位知足的农夫，
然而却一个个的失败，因为农夫非常知足

老恶魔还是不死心，
他又派另一个恶魔去打扰农夫，
这个恶魔教农夫如何耕种，
是农夫变得一个富裕的人

农夫因而变成了另一个人，
他再也不是以前那个知足的农夫了，
他不但不勤奋工作，而且还非常浪费的吃喝，
还刻薄他的仆人，不让他们吃饭

人心真的非常险恶，
恶魔只不过让农夫拥有比他需要的更多而已，
这样就可以引发农夫人性中的贪婪，
把原本容易知足、安分守己的农夫，
变成一个欺善怕恶、又胖又懒散的恶人

心若改变，你的态度跟着改变；
态度改变，你的习惯跟着改变；
习惯改变，你的性格跟着改变；
性格改变，你的人生跟着改变。

献每一个在为梦想努力奋斗的你，
当我们在努力追求梦想的同时，
千万不要忘了最初的本心。

disturbed

2009-11-15T11:48:00.002+08:00

i was rather disturbed by my feelings,
i hate this kind of feelings,
it made me cant sleep

i wonder y i hv such feelings,
i m like on pins and needles,
don't hv any mood for anything

is it bcoz of those lies?
or is it bcoz of those motions?
i don'nt know!!
it just made me feel very uneasy

sometimes, i hope we can return to the past,
at least i m happier in the past..

bad dream

2009-11-13T19:30:00.004+08:00

i had a bad dream just now,
while i was taking my nap

its not a horror dream,
not a wuu wuu dream,
i m so loss and helpless in the dream

i wonder is it becoz my colleague told me her nightmare,
but her nighmare got wuu wuu,
mine was abt i lost my way,
and i hv to walk back home myself,
and the distance is super far -__-

in tht dream,
i kena bully by few malays nearby my house,
they looted my hp while i was calling chee to help me,
i keep screaming n screaming till the malays scared of me,
and they giv me back my hp O.O
but they keep follow me to my hse,
i was so scare and then i frightened till i woke up

the first thg i did was sms chee,
coz i wana tell ppl abt tis dream,
to release my feeling,
after sms-ed, i went to sleep again,
coz i was so tired after the dream -__-

the feeling of lost,
the intimidate feelings,
its like a reflection of the real life..

chances

2009-11-11T20:42:00.003+08:00

chances passed by,
chances just flew away easily

suddenly felt so down,
when i think back,
those chances just passed by my side

i did appreciate those chances,
but it juz flew away tht easily.
is it bcoz i don't hv any luck?
is it bcoz i m not tht hardwork enough?
or is it bcoz i m tht lousy?

today i heard my colleague said
moe is opening a holiday course for spm or stpm tempo teacher,
my colleague plan to apply tis course,
coz she hasn't get her degree cert when she apply tempo teacher

i don't hv the chance to apply tis course,
coz i was a degree holder tempo teacher,
so i m not applicable for tis course,
chance just passed through like tht

tis whole year,
i applied two times,
and i failed two times,
don't even hv the chance to go for interview,
so disappointed..

hope it will hv another chance for next year,
cheer up, jia you :)

sunny sunday ^^

2009-11-08T20:56:00.002+08:00

its a great sunny sunday,
without thunder, without lightening,
most important is without raining :)

chee said wana find me on saturday nite,
but unfortunately, it was raining heavily,
so he promised to find me on sunday,
i didn't put much hope on it,
coz i knew he will over sleep,
or it might be raining again -.-

i called chee after i woke up,
its abt 10am plus,
he said he still tired (knew it),
so i hang up and let him sleep,
den i went downstairs watch tv

chee called me around 12pm,
he asked me bath liao ma,
i hvnt bath coz i thought he won't be able to wake up,
but he said he reached my house already O.O
tis is the first time he so punctual =x

prepared everything and went out with him,
went to Leisure Mall coz we wana watch "Poker King",
chee was hungry so we went to A&W,
coz i said i wana drink root beer ^^ yummy~
the movie was not bad, abit lame and abit shocked at the end

after the movie, i suggested go back earlier,
coz i scare it will rain later since we ride chee's boo boo go,
but chee said he wana shop a while,
we went back home after lunch

finally can meet chee,
since we abt 1 month plus didn't meet,
part of the reason is bcoz of the weather,
another reason is bcoz i m not free =x
had a great sunny sunday tis week :)

outing

2009-11-07T22:51:00.002+08:00

today went out wit kim gary lovers,
met Cheng and Ting on 1pm,
lof coz at our beloved kim gary restaurant :)

been there since 1pm till 5pm plus,
been chatting non stop,
throw out unhappy things,
shared joyous things,
had a great time meeting them

i will treasure this happy moment,
coz if dear Cheng get the teacher course,
we might not be able to meet tht often,
especially during sch holidays,
i earnestly hoped that dear can get the course,
since its a very rare opportunity,
jia you ya, lovely dear ^^

we went back home on 5pm plus,
me and Ting took the same lrt,
the train was so crowded with ppl in red t-shirt,
and most of them are black black guy =x
i think they were heading to watch football math -__-
we had been squished like sardine,
there was no more place to squish,
but those red smelly guys keep on pushing,
made me and Ting nearly fell down D:

when i reached my station,
they dun willing to giv me go out!!
i pissed off and pushed them aside,
and end up hurt my arm -__-
stupid red shirt smelly guys!!
@#@$$%$^$&^&^*%@$@#@!$#%!!!
bad words!! bad words!! bad words!!
stupid ppl!! throw our face!! D:

ok.. felt better after scolded out =p
ignore those stupid ppl,
i had a great time meeting my beloved kim gary lovers,
hope we can meet again soon,
but we do meet soon,
coz we are going to melaka on 18 dec :)
cant wait for tht day~~

will always appreciate the happy time we had together,
i hope we can stay so close no matter wad,
no matter how old we are,
love u all so much :)

mind killer

2009-11-07T00:59:00.002+08:00

its unusual for me to stay awake on tis time,
normally i was sleeping on my warmth bed,
dreaming my prince charming...

but today is a different day..
duno y i din feel sleepy at all,
even though its already 1am

many things pop out in my mind..
chee always says i m too sensitive,
i always like to think negatively,
i always like to think tis n tht,
but everything tht i thought is relate to our future,
even though it hasn't happen,
but it doesn't mean it won't happen!!

why can't he understand??
why cant he become more mature??
why i m the only 1 tht always worry tis n tht??
i wonder did he ever think of our future??

but lately he did treat me well,
become very caring,
and he made commitment with me,
and he said he will try his best to do it,
i hope he can keep his words..

whenever u think of our future,
it always become a blank page,
imagine a guy which already 24 yrs old,
gonna turn 25 next year,
still so immature, still no saving,
can commit to him for the rest of my life??

sometime i felt like i m very realistic,
but ppl r realistic,
since marriage life is abt commitment,
is about sense of security,
for me no house means no sense of security,
but the most important is his immature!!
how to build our own family in future??

i duno wad to do n wad to say anymore,
these thought are killing my mind!!
its gonna boom soon!!

should i continue??
or should i let go??
tis retarded relationship..

落榜

2009-11-02T15:28:00.003+08:00

现在的心情非常低落，
好久没有这种感觉了，
想当年这种感觉出现在我读书时期，
常常在成绩出炉的时候，
往往都会有一种莫名的失落感

可能我天生就不是一个可以与别人竞争的人，
应该说是不擅长与别人争权争势，
所以才选择一个自以为没有竞争的工作来做，
怎知道，到头来还是一样要与别人争 -.-

之前有提过我申请一个假期师训班，
这是开放给拥有大学文凭的临教申请，
而且名额是非常超级之有限，
今天由于身体不适请了病假，
所以从同事的口中得知我落榜了!!

* 今天起床发现肚子又不听话了，
连续上了两次厕所，
担心到了学校会一样会拉肚子，
所以今天呆在家里拿病假 .__. *

假期师训班与普通师训班有何不同？
假期师训班是在学校假期的时候去读的，
而且平时可以在当临教的学校教书（薪水一样），
但是需要用到大约三年的时间才能完成课程，
毕业后通常会教会当临教侍候的学校，
不用担心被派到“山卡拉”地方教书。
而普通师训班则是政府派你到哪个州上课，
你就得到那个州去上课（薪水比较少），
只需要一年到两年的时间就能完成课程，
然而毕业后必须担心政府把你派到“山卡拉”地方教书，
如果不愿意去，就必须赔钱而且不能再做老师了。

虽然落榜是预料之中的事，
但心中难免还是会觉得很失落，
听说这次是选比较有经验的临教去面试，
要怪只能怪自己经验不足 .__.

这个课程曾经在五年前开放给拥有大学文凭的临教，
如今又公开给我们申请，
是个千载难逢的机会，
却被我错失了这个非常好的良机，
还真的有点不忿 D:

失败乃成功之母，
只要有恒心，铁棒都会磨成针！！
下次一定会有更好的机会的~~

welcome -poor- November

2009-11-01T16:57:00.004+08:00

i shall say welcome to -poor- November??
it suppose to be a happy month,
coz its the last month of teaching,
and it will be holidays after tht ^^
but i m lack of money .__.
money not enough D:

spent too much money lately .__.
gonna broke soon,
coz salary will release on end of november,
and now is the beginning of november!!

due to last month was Deepavali,
government released salary in the beginning of october,
so that the indian government worker hv enough money to celebrate,
made me tis month so broke, hv to wait till end of november T__T

today went to eat dim sum as breakfast with big sis and ai wei,
after that went to bookshop buy stationary,
den we went to Econsave buy grocery,
when we finished bought all those grocery,
we saw an optic shop got promotion,
ai wei wana make glasses, so i oso shun bian make a new glasses,
the promotion price is RM199 included frame and glasses,
but mine is more expensive, need RM450,
coz my shortsighted and flash (duno eng call wad =x) very high,
haihs, like tht wasted RM450 liao T__T

only 1 sunday can used so many money -.-
my money flew away..
*ka ching*.. flew~~~
sobs sobs .__.

head-body-stomach-ache

2009-10-31T22:20:00.002+08:00

today woke up early in the morning,
head felt so dizzy and whole body pain,
den i went back to sleep

after a while,
mummy came n woke us up,
coz wana go eat breakfast,
head still felt very dizzy and my body still pain -.-

went to the stall to eat mee,
but i no appetite to eat anything,
felt like wana vomit when i saw those food,
but i forced myself to eat something,
ai wei oso not feeling well too

after ate breakfast,
went back home den went into toilet,
whole day keep lao sai,
mummy said we food poisoning,
but we duwan c doc, juz rest at home

whole day juz ate breakfast,
untill 9pm den eat dinner,
still no appetite to eat .__.
but i feel better after eating dinner,
at least not more lao sai ^^
luckily 2day no need go sch :)
if not sure very troublesome

just keep marking..

2009-10-26T21:17:00.003+08:00

its exam period,
the pupils are bz studying,
and it oso the most peak period for me too,
coz i hv to mark many many many many many exam papers -.-

tis is the last exam for the pupils,
so it included all zhap ba lang subjects,
tht mean i hv to mark many many many many many exam papers..

hv to stop here,
coz wana continue mark exam papers .__.

wedding..

2009-10-25T22:47:00.004+08:00

yday attended my sch colleague's wedding dinner,
we had fun there by chatting and laughing,
although only 3 of us attended =x

2day is her wedding ceremony,
we go there be her "ji mui",
dun really had fun playing those guys,
bcoz of their bad attitude,
most important is the bridegroom was late for an hour!!
their time management very sux,
and we felt like he macam not sincere to marry our fren,
so geram leh D:

summary of the wedding is ........ *speechless*
i juz hope my fren can get happiness,
hope the guy can take good care of her and treat her well .__.

#1. Me, Yin Kwan and Yee Theng

#2. bride and bridegroom kiss while walking back to the stage

#3. taking photo with the bride and bridegroom

#4. bride and bridegroom kiss kiss.. sweet

opportunity..

2009-10-21T21:09:00.001+08:00

tis morning ate breakfast met our "boss",
he told us tht MOE released a course for teacher,
but its a holiday course,
which normally open for those spm or stpm holder

after half day work,
the assistant told us tht MOE released a holiday course,
and its for tempo teacher which is degree or diploma holder,
i was so shocked and so happy,
tis is a rare course for degree holder to study in holiday,
i remembered MOE released 5 years ago,
they reopen it after 5 years ^^

but i heard the assistant said MOE only will call 70 ppl to interview,
and then accept 50 ppl to attend the course,
so its very very tough for us to get in,
since we got not much experience if compare to other,
coz some tempo teacher taught for more than 2 years .__.
but its really a rare chance to study the course,
we must appreciate all chances no matter wad

i will pass up my form and everything,
hope i can get the chance to study the course,
and i will keep dreaming i go to school with my colleagues during school holiday xD

disgrace

2009-10-20T16:53:00.002+08:00

today, i helped my colleague replace her class,
i m very unwilling to replace tht class,
coz tht class is very naughty and no manners

since its exam period, so i think should be no prob,
but something happened in the class,
and i did not notice it

the students started to laugh.
and talked within themselves during the exam period,
i accidentally heard them said something,
den only noticed the reason they laughed

when i noticed wads going on,
i thought of find a hole to hide inside,
i never been so disgrace before,
i duno what to do yet i still hv to act nth happen -__-

i m afraid those students will simply spread out,
haihs, but what can i do??
as like wad my mum said,
everything will gone soon, juz ignore them :(

haihs,
today is the most disgraceful day in my life..

one day trip

2009-10-17T23:18:00.006+08:00

today follow school trip to Gua Tempurung and Songkai for onde day trip,
its very tiring although i din join tht extreme part,
but whole day trip made me exhausted,
head felt super dizzy @.@

woke up on 5.30am, bath and prepare everything,
6.45am reached school and depart on 7am
we saw an accident on the way to Gua Tempurung,
the car was burned and we duno hows the driver o.o
reached Gua Tempurung on 10am

there is 4 part to climb the Gua Tempurung,
some teacher chose the adventure part,
but some chose climb to the top of the cave which included me,
end up kena ppl said we wasted la, no use la, bla bla bla..
so annoying and so irritating!!
WHATEVER!! i dun care, diff ppl hv diff point of view,
they wana chose the adventure part its non of my business,
same as we chose normal part oso our own business,
juz stop their fking mouth n stop those annoying words!!

after tht went to eat lunch on 3.45pm -.-
hungry till no energy to tok,
then we went to Songkai hot spring,
tht hor spring is super big :)
but dun really enjoy coz with those ppl -.-

went to eat dinner on 8.30pm,
den went back to school on 9.30pm,
reached school on 10.30pm,
but hv to wait my sis to fetch me,
left me alone waiting there with another male teacher,
so i called n asked my sis was she reaching soon?
end up kena fk by her -.-
y i got such lousy sis??
i wish i can quickly get my own car,
den i no need c her fking face n no need beg her!! D:

wad i can summarized from tis trip is :
i wont join any school trip anymore,
its totally not fun with those ppl around..
i can heard alot of rumours along the trip,
which is the thg tht i hated most!!
they never stand on ppl side and think for others,
they wanted ppl to obey what they decided and what they thought..
its their mind and their point, NOT MINE!! NOT OURS!!
so juz fk off and stop all the fking words!!

rush.. rush.. rush..

2009-10-16T15:56:00.002+08:00

tis week passed so fast,
so fast reached friday.
so fast gonna saturday.
which i dun wish it to reach -.-

been rushing non stop since monday,
coz next week is exam week,
hv to rush all syllabus,
hv to rush all exercises,
hv to rush all revisions,
hv to rush to mark those exercises!!

finally finish all syllabus,
finally finish all exercises,
finally finish marking all exercises,
but abt revision....
haihs, not enough time to do it -.-

its not teaching life,
its rushing for exam life -.-
i wonder will they memorised wad i taught?

lately become ah po,
keep reminding n reminding n reminding,
keep repeating n repeating n repeating,
me, myself oso felt very fan n annoyed,
duno they will feel fan n annoyed or not .__.

tomorrow will be leaving KL,
gonna go Gua Tempurung, Perak
for 1 day trip,
which i m super unwilling to go,
coz its very troublesome to go there,
hv to bring cloths to change -.-
sien sien sien!!

wad to do??
juz hope tomorrow's trip will be fun,
hope nth will happen during the trip,
especially rumours or offend anyone

next week onwards will be a bz week,
coz hv to mark many exam papers -__-
*faint*

hope year end holidays faster reach!! ~_~

Nothing's Gonna Change..

2009-10-15T17:19:00.006+08:00

accidentally heard tis song from facebook's link,
it an old yet nice song that sang by fang da tong,
although its very old,
but its very meaningful,
it match fang da tong

Song : nothing's gonna change my love for you
Artist : fang da tong

if i had to live my life without you near me
the days would all be empty
the nights would seem so long
you i see forever oh so clearly
i might have been in love before
but i've never felt this strong
our dreams are young and we both know
they take us where we want to go
hold me now touch me now
i don't want to live without you

nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through
but nothing's gonna change my love for you

if the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way for us
like a guiding star
i'll be there for you if you should need me
you don't have to change a thing
i love you just the way you are
so come with me and share the view
i help you see forever too
hold me now touch me now
i don't want to live without you

what a nice song,
with such a nice voice :)

平等

2009-10-13T17:33:00.002+08:00

常常听人说：“法律面前，人人平等”
在现实社会里真的有平等这回事吗？

法律在我的眼里，
是给那些有钱人玩的游戏，
又或者是给那些有权威的人玩的，
得罪那些人就会有很悲惨的下场

所谓的“法律面前，人人平等”，
只是一些用来安慰穷人的字眼，
至今社会真的可以人人平等吗？

我们的国家就是最好的例子了，
平等永远不会在这里出现，
那些政治人物常常把平等挂在嘴边，
但却没有真正的让我们看见实际的平等，
不管怎么说，别人还是拥有优先权

如果人民要告政府，
你认为人民有胜算吗？
就好像政府部门的员工要告它们的上司，
你认为员工有胜算吗？
当然是上司赢，因为他们有政府撑腰
这就是所谓的“法律面前，人人平等”？

我认为要做到“法律面前，人人平等”是非常难，
尤其是这里贿赂这么盛行，
再加上现实社会里的现实人，
有谁不见钱眼开呢？

要真正做到“法律面前，人人平等”，
我想应该要等很长的时间，才能实现

法律本应帮助受害的人，
却到头来帮助做错的人...

Aeroplane KING

2009-10-11T18:19:00.002+08:00

i created a reward for dafeiiyangq,
its the first runner up for "Aeroplane KING"

he said he will came over to my hse on Saturday,
but yday he told me tht he cant make it,
coz his on9 game frens went to Kepong find him
n he said he will find me on Sunday

today afternoon called him,
he juz woke up with sleepy sound,
i knew he will put aeroplane,
i asked him whether he wana sleep or wad?
he chose to sleep at home

its weird tht i m not mad at him,
izit bcoz of the immunization?
its not the first time he broke promise,
if really hv to count out,
i think its more than i could count

y he never think b4 he made any promise?
he will never noe the feeling of looking forward,
but at the end become losing hope

duno y suddenly become so moody,
should i believe or stop believing??
the distance become greater n greater..

i hate people that couldn't keep his words!

灰蓝色的心情

2009-10-09T20:17:00.010+08:00

我记得有张惠妹一首歌的歌词里面写着，
“灰色是不想说，蓝色是忧郁”
正好描述我今天的心情，
两者加起来等于“灰蓝色”

今天是我在这里工作后，第二次吃死猫了，
我真的不知道问题到底出现在哪里？
是我的问题吗？
可能是我的理解能力差？
还是别人的表达能力有问题？

都怪我一时口快，
可是我不知道是不能说的，
我不知道上司不懂这件事，
结果害到别人被骂，
令我感到非常过意不去

而我也笨到只听那个人的片面之词，
以为是我的错，把事情的责任扛起，
向被骂者道歉和解释，
希望她真的没有放在心上

虽然我不能说我完全没有错，
然而我最大的错就是没有问清楚，
我生气的是那个人说可以迟来，
结果原来是她自己自作主张，
再加上我是新人，
我不明白她们的pandai pandai是什么意思！

每个人都说我笨，
问我为何不把事实说出来？
为何不告诉上司那个人说的东西？
我是觉得多一事不如少一事，
如果我把事实说出来会把事情搞大，
到时就会有更多问题出现

但是回想起来，还觉得有点不忿
明明那个人告诉我的东西有问题，
到头来却是我被人家责备，
责备一下是不用紧，
最怕别人放在心上，看我不顺眼，
那么往后的日子会很难过

唉，原本以为这份工不会有那么多人士问题，
结果反过来比公司里的人士问题还要多！
为什么会这样呢？？
我只求做个简简单单的小职员，
我根本不要争什么东西，
为什么平凡看似简单，却那么难得到？

我能说什么？
连我妹都说我单纯，说我笨，
难道我真的那么笨？
难道笨就必须被欺负？
难道我就不能过得平凡一点？

我唯有把这次的事情当作一个教训，
下次不要再这么心软了！！！

mooncake festival

2009-10-04T18:30:00.001+08:00

yday is our big day,
not only bcoz yday is mooncake festival,
our family oso celebrating ai wei's bday,
we celebrate it earlier,
coz mummy n da jie is going to taiwan on 7/10

ai wei.. should call her aven kee,
hahas, the super designer,
designed dress and shirt for us,
n also sew it herself,
we r very proud for her ^^

although most of her secondary's frens put aeroplane,
although she felt so disappointed for it,
but when she saw our gift,
she felt so happy

she said she duwan present,
coz she will throw it away after few year,
although she was joking,
but we knew she duwan those unuse present

so pik yean had an idea by giving her money,
through folding it into shapes and gift her
so pik yean n me incharge to fold,
dafeiiyangq juz share the money with us,
n how wei gave ai wei RM100 personally,
but we helped him to fold it ^^

when she opened the box,
she was so surprised,
she asked pik yean is it real?? -.-
coz all money was folded into love shape,
we gave her total of RM210 (exclude how wei's 100),
inside hv 21 big heart shape RM1,
21 big heart shape RM2,
and also 3 big heart shape RM10,
which mean me, pik yean and dafeiiyangq,
others is folded into small heart shape ^^

i m glad tht she love the present we gave her,
hope she enjoyed the party,
n hope all her wishes will come true ^^

nightmare

2009-10-03T18:40:00.002+08:00

had a nightmare,
i 4got wad i dream,
juz remembered my mum scolded me,
i duno wad she scolded,
den i cried badly in tht dream,
n i was crying when i woke up after tht dream,
it was 3am midnite

i was so blur tht time,
i found tht my necklace broken,
n my hand was holding a ring,
it was given by dafeiiyangq

when i woke up at 3am,
i remembered tht nightmare so well,
but tis morning,
i 4got the nightmare -.-

when i told mummy the nightmare,
daddy asked me izit desperate to marry?
if not y keep hold the ring
38 de la him -___-

pity necklace,
duno how it broke??
mb i pulled too hard until it broke??
cant remember at all -___-
i wonder y i had such a weird dream -.-

la la la..

2009-10-01T18:23:00.001+08:00

abandoned my blog for so long =x
so tired and lazy to update .__.

went to Johor Bahru and Singapore on 20/9-22/9
unable to find my Sg frens,
coz went there with my lovely family ^^
we took many photos n uploaded to facebook,
i think i wont upload here,
coz lazy n no ppl read de la =p
kakakaka

after tht slack at home,
went sing k with my uni frens on 25/9,
of coz wont miss out Kim Gary session =p
as dafeiiyangq said,
everytime i meet my uni frens,
we guarantee will go to Kim Gary :)

slack till monday sch reopen,
den bz chong chong chong,
hv to rush all those syllabus =x
so stress coz exam is around the corner,
must try my best to teach all those syllabus .__.

super tired,
yet still happy with my holidays ^^

Karaoke Session

2009-09-18T21:40:00.002+08:00

went out with my sch's colleagues,
first time sing k with them,
its quite fun coz got 1 38 po there,
or the reason is we r quite close with each other :)

after i changed office,
i felt more happy than b4,
mb the new office less ppl,
n most of them r same post wit me,
so we can mix up easily =p

although only 3 of us go to sing,
but we sang non stop,
n oso laughed non stop,
we really enjoy ourself yday

1st time sang so long,
we started from 1.30pm until 7pm
sang for 5 hours plus,
so syiok, so fun, so happy
and only cost us RM25 each person
the main reason is bcoz today is friday,
not much ppl go there sing k,
wakakakakaka

had a great day,
hope they oso enjoy themselve ^^
although sang till sore throat,
but karaoke still ssuper syok!!!

衰神缠身

2009-09-17T15:56:00.002+08:00

wtf wtf wtf wtf!!
我到底怎么了？？
为什么这么笨？？
世界上为什么有这么笨的人？

昨晚好不容易干完的工，
还兴奋道睡不着，
结果今天早上发现到我既然没有存档！！

我本来以为我存在pen drive里，
做完后click save，
然后把pen drive的document copy到desktop里，
今天早上到办公室要print的时候，
才发现到我的pen drive里的是旧的document!!

原来我昨晚是存在desktop，
我兴奋到没有rename，
直接选copy and replace，
现在我又要重做第四次！！！！

我终于体会到什么是欲哭无泪了，
今天早在学校发现的时候，
泪在眼眶出不来，
完全没有心情吃早餐，
结果现在胃在翻搅 .__.

昨天没睡午觉，感到12am才睡，
打算今天给负责的人检查了，
再交给另一位在假期里检查的，
现在什么都没了！唉..

明天是学校的特假，
好咯，在家里慢慢做吧
我真的没有见过这么笨的人 .__.
我也从来没有这么倒霉过 -.-
只能怪自己疏忽，不细心

Redo AGAIN?!

2009-09-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

yes, i hv to REDO AGAIN!! D:
coz of the stupid virus!!

when i nearly finish my work,
i press save in case any accident happen,
but my sis's lappy pop out smthg,
it said my document corrupted,
it saved in another document,
when i checked my pen drive,
my document was gone!!!! D:

i try to open the repleced document,
it appears with alien words -.-
damn upset, damn no mood,
tears running out of my eyes,
all my hard work gone again!!!

i told ai wei i din hv mood to eat dinner,
but she said there is no point for me to be upset,
coz i hv to redo it no matter wad,
y not go out hv a fresh air, cool down my mind,
den come back work again

i listend to her, go out eat dinner wit da jie and ai wei
we ate western food,
felt relief after hving dinner outside,
came back home, continue my work again .__.

Redo

2009-09-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

after a week of hard work,
i finally finished my work,
but now, i hv to redo it -___-

coz i ben dao put it inside the office's document file,
coz the work i do is very secretive,
cant reveal to the colleagues,
if not i m big trouble .__.

although i not sure whether any ppl opened my file,
but i oso cant guarantee no ppl open my file,
so to avoid any possibility,
i hv to redo all over again

super no mood,
since i work so hard to finish it .__.
haihssss.. wad to do??
i only can blame myself for so careless T__T

解释？？

2009-09-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

难的快乐的周末到来
难得一个星期的见面
难得兴奋的期待你的到来
却被你一一的毁灭

怪不得你的语气那么温柔
原来是因为你没办法来
原因是你其中一只眼睛肿了

眼睛肿了为什么不拿假休息？
为什么还可以坚持工作整天？
原因是不希望拿假被扣薪水
这个我没话可说，你勤劳嘛

可以工作为什么不能来找我？
原因是骑摩托的风会弄到你的眼睛很痛，
因为来我家很远，眼睛会很痛
摩托帽有挡风的盖，却被说是黑色的，
晚上没有盖下来，因为很黑看不见
又一次没话可说了，安全最重要嘛

到了放工时间却没有一个电话，
原以为你眼睛肿在家休息，
担心你所以打给你，
结果却发现你在外面吃晚餐，
妈妈没有煮，所以要到外面吃饭，
生气是因为你没有交代，
但是我也没说可说，因为不能饿肚子嘛

可是当我问道跟谁吃，
他说他都是一个人吃的，
他有很多朋友陪他喝茶的嘛，
不然也不会一个月才见我一次，
他说朋友晚上才找他的，
那么说如果晚上朋友找他，他会出去咯？
答案是，看他们有没有约他吧？

这个我真的忍无可忍了！！
眼睛肿不能来找我，
却可以跟朋友出去？？！！

我算什么？？我到底是什么？？
为什么最近总是感觉我什么都不是？
总觉得我是呼之者来，挥之者去的感觉？
总觉得不要来的时候，解释一大堆！！

往往解释越多，最终就变成了借口！
我要的不是一堆烂借口！！

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oh ya, i finally cut my super thick hair,
after 3 months of keeping it,
freaking troublesome to keep a hair till neck -.-
damn hot and damn itchy =x

planned to cut shorter de,
like 戴佩妮 latest album's hair style,
but i duno how 2 describe to the director -.-
nvm ba, after 2 months go cut again :)

ai wei and pik yean permed their hair 2gether,
they keep persuade me to perm my hair next time,
but i m super lazy to style my hair after bath =x
c how ba, mb after 2 months will change my mind??

went to eat dinner on 10.30pm,
hungry till my stomach keep on playing drum -.-
went to BRJ mamak stall took our dinner,
chit chat a while, laugh a while,
den went back home

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混在人群里觉得非常安静，
一个人却显得非常吵闹，
我希望心可以安静一点！！
讨厌那种胃翻滚、搅动的感觉！！

Updates

2009-09-08T19:08:00.002+08:00

got abt 1 week never update my blog,
plan to update de,
but too many in my mind,
duno wana update which 1st,
so i decided to do a summary =x

last thurs went out with Pik Yean and Ai Wei,
coz Pik Yean wana discuss insurance thg,
its abt insurance's Saving Plan,
coz Ai Wei plan to buy,
we went to Leisure Mall's 龙的传人,
took some photos, will update soon =x

last sunday went to Kepong with Pik Yean,
went there find dafeiiyangq coz wana review his insurance,
n his insurance got abit prob,
since i keep nag him to check with his agent,
but he didn't do so, so i direct asked Pik Yean help
been abt 8 months din see his mum and Ah Bi,
his mums till healthy and still tht frenly :)
Ah Bi grew so fast, so fast so high liao,
and she likes to stick with me,
wana me help her tie hair, make her look "mei mei" ^^
love her so much!! <33 Ah Bi
we ate dinner with his mum and Ah Bi,
den went back home after tht :)

yday went out with my new colleague,
first time went out with them,
coz one of my colleague which is younger than me 1 yr old,
is getting marry in tis end of october,
so we accompany her go Times Square buy cloths and shoes,
now den i noticed Times Square has many cheap cloths and shoes,
but main criteria is -- u must not be a fat gal like me .__.
if not u will be very hard to get cheap and nice cloths T___T
but i still able to bought 1 RM10 jacket =p
but its abit tight after i brought back home,
coz RM10 de thg cant try,
but nvm, after washed den will become bigger,
how pathetic i am T__T MUST SLIM DOWN!! D:
but i had a wonderful first time with my new colleagues ^^

today went to sch without teaching,
coz standard 6 students are having UPSR exam,
so we juz go to sch and mark exercise books or prepare exam papers,
but not tht easy, still hv to hv a evaluation interview!!
now den i realised the reason i keep insomnia for these few weeks,
one thg tht i hate most is INTERVIEW!!
although i m not important person,
but i still felt stress when it came with a word -- interview..
my interview is on thursday, plus hv to prepare exam paper,
damn stress leh!! haihs .__.
hope everything will gone faster,
hope year end holidays faster come!! =x

oh ya, 10/9 is gonna reached :)
tht mean my salary gonna release soon!!
yahoo!! i m not a poor girl anymore xD

sentiment for things tht happened these few days:
1. its happy to hang out with frens rather than stay at home
2. its happy to slack at home too when u r tired =x
3. marriage is a huge issue that need commitment from both parties
4. girls must know how to protect themselve after married
5. dafeiiyangq is damn stubborn in certain things
6. abit happy coz dafeiiyangq willing to change his life style
7. worried coz duno he will giv blank promised again or not -.-
8. Ah Bi is super duper cute!!
9. shopping is a way to release stress and a way to build good frenship
10. interview is really stressing!! D:
11. wish my fren tht getting register will get happiness :)
12. hope everything will goes smoothly :)

k time ^^

2009-08-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

today is our nasional day,
tht mean its holiday xD

suddenly decided to go sing k with frens
yes, sing k again =x

tis is my 1st time sing wit ai wei,
but dafeiiyangq seen so bored,
haih, its hard 2 satisfy him,
y cant he hv fun wit my frens??

once again, i bought another pair of shoe =x
we walked around and had our dinner there,
den went back home

shopping

2009-08-29T23:49:00.002+08:00

went shopping wit frens,
dafeiiyangq has been forced to follow,
coz he wana buy bday gift for me,
which i chose the present myself -.-
no surprise at all...

we shopped for the whole day,
i bought 3 pairs of shoe, 4 bras, some skin care product
used abt RM700+
haihs.. so pok now,
hope my salary faster come out -.-

supre tired after shopping whole day,
totally exhausted -.-

HappY :)

2009-08-27T23:46:00.003+08:00

went out with Kim Gary lovers,
Li Ling, sue Ting and Siew Cheng,
only Li Ling dislike Kim Gary's food,
she is so weird =x kaka

they suddenly suggested go sing k,
so we change our venue to Leisure Mall,
we sang from 2.30pm till 7pm,
at the end, all no more energy sing =x
except me, keep singing..

had a wonderful day hanging out wit them,
we tried many new songs,
although we duno how to sing,
but we forced ourselve to sing xD

its nice chatting with them too,
we can chat non stop,
and also laugh non stop :)
love gather with them very much!!

there was another thing that made my mood very good,
coz i finally get my revenge xD
hohoho, so shuang!!
although felt guilty to made him angry,
but actually i din planned that b4,
i duno y he so angry??
as i always din bring hp when i go out with my family,
but at least he can noe how i felt =x
but i din tell him, if not he will be more angry .__.

yuhoo~

2009-08-25T19:05:00.001+08:00

dated Poh Yee,
today is her off day,
she asked me pei her sing k,
and watch movie

we went to Green Box,
sing from 11am to 2pm,
den shop a while,
and eat lunch at Ichiban Ramen

our movie started at 4.20pm,
Poh Yee wana watch "Laughing Gor: Turning point"
tis movie super nice,
many experienced actors act in tis movie,
unlike last 2 movies tht i watched,
the plot of tis movie is very good,
full of axcitement tht will made u shocked

i personally recomment tis movie,
but the only thg i dislike from tis movie is bloods,
it has many tussle scenes,
coz tis movie is for 18 above,
but overall is very nice

most unforgetable scene,
is when the dai lou's sis shooted by ppl,
the dai lou keep protecting his sis,
no matter how the bad guy shoot him,
he insist to hug her till she stop breathing,
at the end, the dai lou oso dead .__.
but the main actor is "Laughing Gor"

thumb up for this movie!!

nowadays, mind is full of unsecure thgs
how i wish i never noe wad happened,
at least i m still the same old me,
at least i no need keep on suspect him
i wonder izit the longer we be together,
the more problem exist,
and our relationship will become flimsiness

look at people's happiness,
made me felt so melancholy..
i hope time really can sure everything!!

Visit Jia Nee

2009-08-23T16:12:00.004+08:00

woke up early,
went to eat dim sum,
yummy yummy :)

pik yean suggested to go visit Jia Nee,
but actually wana visit her new born baby boy =x
plus its very hard to reach Jia Nee,
coz she always din pick up phone -.-

luckily pik yean got her house address,
we reached there and press door bell,
she was so shocked when she saw us

she was teaching piano tht time,
and her baby boy - LoLo was sleeping,
so we walk around her house and wait LoLo wake up

we heard baby's cry,
she told us LoLo woke up wana drink milk,
we followed her to upstairs,
saw her hubby hugging LoLo, which is a "ang mo"

when i saw LoLo,
he "sot" me with his sexy eyes .__.
he is super cute, with his chubby face,
super tiny, super shuai, super innocent .__.

while we were chatting wit Jia Nee,
LoLo also talked non stop,
although we duno wad he talking =x
juz heard "aaaa, iii, eeee.."
those baby's language,
super cute!!

#1. LoLo just woke, drinking milk with his pity tears .__.

#2. cutie LoLo showing "peace" ^^

#3. we fall in love with his tiny puny foot :)

#4. Ai Wei carrying LoLo, see his shuai shuai face ^^

#5. LoLo:" why so many jie jie take photo wit me? "

his baddie mum keep asked him called us "auntie" -.-
cant believe Jia Nee the 38 gal,
now became mummy!!
hahs, hope she can live happily,
and hope LoLo can grow up healthiness,
den marry with my baby girl =x

bye

2009-08-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

daddy, mummy, ah ma and er gu
is going to Laos today morning,
daddy called back juz now,
he said they reached Laos safely

feel so boring at home,
luckily ai wei today off,
but she has to work at home -.-

went out wit pik yean,
we went to Mid Valley coz wana go The Garden,
last time unable to eat Sushi Zanmai,
i wana eat sushi no matter wad =x

but the queue still very long,
at last we went downstairs' "Sushi Zen",
which is Sushi Zanmai's subsidiary,
not as much choices as Sushi Zanmai,
but the foods not bad ^^
we bought some ice-cream as out deserts

we booked tickets tis time,
we watched "大内密探零零狗",
super lame, but not as good as the old 1

after movie its 11pm+,
we went to mamak stall yam cha,
and pik yean stay over at my house again =p

wonderful nite,
wit lovely dinner,
lame movie,
and nice supper =)

Happy h0lidaY

2009-08-21T16:47:00.002+08:00

from today onwards,
i will have 1 week holidays ^^

i love scholl holidays,
although its abit boring at home,
but at least i no need shout so much =x

- enjoying my holidays :) -

Boring sundaY

2009-08-16T19:37:00.004+08:00

Pik Yean stay over at my house
yes, she came my house again!

thought can watch 大内密探 de,
but Pik Yean dated ppl,
so we postponed to next saturday nite

yday unable to watch 大内密探,
coz din book earlier, left front rows -.-
so we watched "Tracing Shadow",
quite lame yet funny ^^
but i think 大内密探 will be nicer

yday unable to eat sushi also,
coz Sushi Zanmai so crowded,
the queue so long and Ai Wei super hungry,
so we plan to eat Pasta Zanmai,
but crowded also, so we went Madam Kwan,
which is next to Pasta Zanmai,
the foods quite ok, but cendol not nice =x

today damn boring,
stay at home surf net,
on facebook play quiz,
dreaming, slacking, dreaming...

BORING..
BORING..
BORING!!

` 敬佩 '

2009-08-15T15:17:00.005+08:00

还深陷在刚才发生的事件
精彩的画面不停地反复出现在脑海
新鲜得犹如刚刚发生

我真的非常佩服他
他很潇洒的说出所有人的心声
他说的很对也非常勇敢
因为没有人敢发表自己的意见
在这里为他很用力的鼓掌！！
* 啪！啪！啪！*

我是第一次这么敬佩一位有义气的男生
因为以前的我觉得讲义气的男生非常笨
然而，我想他以后的日子应该会很难过
因为义气毕竟不能当饭吃
而且他得罪的并不是闲等人物

在这里衷心的希望他能平平安安
希望那个人不会为难他
不过机会很渺茫...

RelieveD

2009-08-14T18:01:00.003+08:00

simple words
warmth my heart
felt relieved

girl is very soft hearted
one sentence can cure everthing
can rest her heart and her mind

an ordinary terms
an ordinary human
an ordinary life
is what i demand..

Aph0nia

2009-08-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

suffer from aphonia,
it made me can't teach,
coz kids become lawness,
since i lost my voice -.-

plan to take MC today,
but kids are going to exam,
so i went to teach,
but i think i accidently spread my virus to other =x

i think i better guai guai stay at home,
i duwan to spread my virus to others,
duwan being blame by ppl,
i will feel guilty for that .__.

so, 2ml i will stay at home,
rest and recuperation,
hope my voice can recover soon,
i duwan sounds like auntie =x
its very difficult for me to talk a full sentence correctly,
i will lost my voice in the middle or the end of the sentece =x

pray hard,
hope i can recover soon .__.

` calmness '

2009-08-09T22:37:00.002+08:00

complex emotional
feel angry,
feel disappointed,
feel upset,
feel sick,
feel tired..

wad can i do?
wad can i say?
wad can i think?

the only thing i can do,
is to advice?
is to scold?
is to ignore?
or is to let go?

stay calm,
stay calm,
stay calm,
stay calm,
stay calm..

` fall f0r me '

2009-08-08T21:57:00.003+08:00

s0re thr0at, c0ugh, flu..
all fall for me -.-
i have a sexy voice,
felt so hard to swallow .__.

yday already not feeling well,
keep cough till cant nap at afternoon -.-
2day school treat us eat lunch,
but all fried dishes,
made my throat become worst .__.

felt so uncomfortable,
seems to be sick,
if tomorrow still hvnt cure,
i might apply MC on monday .__.

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How Wei came back from Singapore,
he reached KL at 4am,
i woke up by Ai Wei's alarm on 4am -.-
coz she wana follow daddy go bus station fetch How Wei back

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2day is crazy Kim Gary gang's gathering =x
went to Maluri's Kim Gary juz now,
went there with Ai Wei and How Wei,
met dear Qing and Pik Yean,
Ai Wei was infected by me,
she oso not feeling well .__.

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juz ate medi, feel so sleepy .__.
i am wearing mask at home,
hope i wont spread my virus to my family .__.

i will go to Kepong tomorrow,
wana visit ah bi n dafeiiyangq's mum,
but dafeiiyangq seems unhappy,
i hope its my misconception .__.

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off to bed,
nites :)

Resolved??

2009-08-07T18:01:00.002+08:00

after so many days,
although the issue between dafeiiyangq was solved,
but my mind doesn't has any sense of security,
my mind keep flash back the girl's name,
no matter what he told me,
a question keep emerged in my mind,
"is he telling the truth? or he is lying to me again?"

this is the third time he lied me,
i felt so disappointed n heartache,
my heart will never cure

yday i asked him abt that girl's matter,
he sounds very impatient,
but he told me that the girl doesn't sms or call him lately,
i asked him if she sms or call, will he reply her?
he said he doesn't know how to answer,
coz he worry i will think in another way again

i told him there is a scar there and it will never cure,
since my heart already accumulated 3 scars,
those scars are difficult to recover!
but he said today's technology so advanced,
sure got a way to cure those scars -.-

our conversation changed to joke,
but does he notice that there is sadness behind those laughs?
i wonder, does he felt heartache as how i felt when he saw i cry?
am i an idiot for choosing to belief him?

i felt so puzzled,
becoz there is no real solution for the issue..
its never resolve,
never...

` 理所当然 '

2009-08-07T17:50:00.002+08:00

请你别把所有东西都当作是理所当然
别人帮助你是因为你是我们的亲戚
这个世界是没有免费的午餐
所有东西都要靠自己努力才能得到的

你常说不用工作也可以生活
你也说一天不用吃那么多餐
这种不是人的生活

如果每个人都像你那样想
那么每个人都不用工作？
那么还有谁有收入给你？

身为一个信徒，应该是很高尚的
但是我却看见你非常丑陋的一面
搬弄是非，搞得家里每个人都不开心
更生气的是，你还装作一脸美食的样子！

我只希望家里人开开心心，
我只希望婆婆健健康康，
我只希望大家都和睦共处

所以拜托你不要再做什么小动作，
也希望你别把所有人家给你的善举
当作是一种理所当然的事情，
请你站在别人的立场想一想！！

` Ice Age 3 '

2009-08-03T20:00:00.004+08:00

yday watched Ice Age 3,
i watched all 3 episodes,
from Ice Age 1 until Ice Age 3,
i think all episodes are very nice n funny
these Ice Age movies are abt frenship,
those animals have a very close frenship,
although they always argue

next english movie target is "Up" and "G-Force",
watched cinema's preview,
macam very nice and funny

i also wan to watch "大内密探零零狗",
i din watch preview,
but the poster seem like very funny

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btw, daddy, mummy, ah ma and er gu din go to Laos,
they came back on Saturday,
coz ah ma din hv visa,
so they hv to postponed their trip to 22 Aug,
ngam ngam is school holidays :)

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saturday's bbq was fun,
but left many foods at my hse -.-
we are trying our best to finish those foods
will upload bbq's photos soon,
but not today coz very tired @.@

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mood is still very down,
still thinking, can't forget the things that happened .__.
am i messing up the situation?

` 谎言 '

2009-08-02T22:32:00.002+08:00

一支又直又长的铁棒
被拗了就会弯曲
无论你怎么努力地把它弄直
结果还是会有被拗的痕迹

直到今日那个痕迹依然存在
却又被狠狠地加多一个伤口

曾经所许下的承诺
如今却化为乌有了

这是善意的谎言吗？
为什么我只感到心痛？
为什么不会觉得生气？
是因为麻木了吗？

曾经的怀疑却被你的谎言掩埋了，
你口中的公司男同事，
如今却变成女生的声音？！

而你的解释总是因为我想太多，
可是你可曾想过是什么事情导致我想太多？
而你有没有真的心疼我？
为什么一而再，再而三的编制谎言？

曾几何时信任已经远离我？
应该是当你一开始欺骗我的那一刻起吧？
两个人在一起没有了坦白与信任，
这样的爱情还有意义吗？

很想说出我心里的感受，
可是每当提起她，眼泪会不由自主地流
彼此的交谈就这样停止，
倔强的我不愿意让你看见我的悲伤，
不知所措的你选择了沉默

如今的你闷不吭声就代表没发生过吗？
如今的我假装没事就代表没有事了吗？
那么那个她又扮演着什么角色？！

你给我的答案是女生打电话给男生是很平常的事
然而对我而言那不是件平常的事！
她身为同事除了公事却一直打电话给你就是有事！
她有事没事的每一天半夜打很多通电话给你就代表有问题！

现在的我只想一个人冷静下来，
好好的想一想我们到底应该怎样...

bye bye .__.

2009-08-01T06:53:00.002+08:00

daddy, mummy, ah ma and er gu
are heading to airport now
they are going to Laos for 1 week

i very worry them,
coz now H1N1 is all over the world!!
i hope they will come back safely

i will pray for them everyday,
7 days is quite long for me,
duno wad will happen during these 7 days

must think positively!!
think positively!!
think positively!!

i miss them very much!! .__.

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tonight is BBQ night,
Ai Wei and i invited some frens to our hse,
and also celebrate Siok Pei's and Fooi Lee's 24th birthday,
hope everything goes smoothly ^^

creative thinking

2009-07-28T19:00:00.001+08:00

lately, i found that my thinking become more creative
i have to thanks to those lazy monkeys,
and the zoo that full of restrivtion,
they made my mind become creative

bcoz of their laziness,
and canning is prohibited in zoo,
forced me to use my brain to think of ways to punish those monkeys

scolding them is useless,
coz they wont bear in mind!
cane them also useless,
coz their skin very thick!!
BUT punish them might be the best way,
or threaten also quite useful =x

lately, i discover a way to punish those monkeys,
i told them i will use camera capture those lazy ppl's photo,
n then post into pc and use powerpoint to make a slide show,
and will show it to their parents during year end parent day

it is quite useful for some classes,
but some monkeys really no medi can cure their laziness,
den might have to direct contact their parents -__-

nowadays, teachers are not only teaching,
we still have to do many many things,
next time will post up the responsibility of teachers =p

i love being teacher,
its very fun sometime,
but its very tiring too .__.

relax

2009-07-25T14:13:00.002+08:00

today is my lovely off day,
i decide to stay at home,
long time din relax at home

i love my off day,
i love to relax relax,
i love to on facebook,
i love to play those quiz,
i love to steal ppl's fruit =x

kakaka..
my sch teachers r addicted to the farm game,
i everyday go steal their fruits,
ended up kena scold by them .__.

new office is better than existing office,
although new office oso got many gossip,
but its abt other ppl =p
hahas, sometime 8 abitoso not bad

i m planning wad to do later,
waiting ai wei come back home,
den pei me on9 n 38 =p

祈求...

2009-07-22T14:18:00.006+08:00

老人活到一把年纪
应该是时候享老
却被女儿劝她吃素
说是为了老人的后代积福

可怜的老人，年仅九十
觉得女儿说得有道理
凡事都为她的后代着想
但她的后代呢？
有谁是真心为她想的呢？！

老人吃了整九十年的荤
现在必须把她喜爱的食物搁在一旁
子孙看了都觉得痛心
但是由于老人的坚持
没有人敢说些什么

在A型流感这么盛行的时刻
女儿又突然希望老人去辽国
说是去那边拜拜，可能可以身体健康
老人不愿意去，而且家人们也反对
再加上那边的师傅寄来的电邮里面写着：
“请帮婆婆买单程机票”
“如果婆婆在这里离开世界，是她的荣幸”
让家人们更极力的反对老人去辽国

家人们并不是不要老人不健康
但是老人的身体很弱，还在生病
再加上A型流感的散播家人们都非常担心老人的健康
家人们都希望老人能够健健康康地度过今年的九十岁大寿
然后才去辽国拜拜

每个人都有自己的宗教信仰
但我不明为什么有人可以信仰得这么执着！！
我知道她也希望婆婆好
但是我希望她能够有点智慧
凡是都应该想一想后果

请你别只活在你的世界与想法里
请你站在别人的立场想一想
请你别把事情想得那么简单
请你在做每一件事前想一想后果
请你不要每天在老人面前告诉她负面的东西

我明白每一个人终有一天会离开这个世界
但是我不希望婆婆这么快离开我们
目前婆婆的身体很弱，令我非常担心她的健康
更令我心痛的是婆婆现在觉得她会随时离开
我不希望她有这种负面的想法！！

祈求上天保佑婆婆健健康康~

` 激励课程 '

2009-07-18T17:17:00.006+08:00

今天是星期六，
原本可以赖在温暖的被窝里，
继续与周公的儿子幽会的，
却必须在7时30分起身准备去学校，
因为今天学校有一个激励课程，
全校的老师们都必须出席

我别无选择，唯有拖着慵懒的身躯去学校
原本以为这个课程是个超级无聊的课程，
可是上了后，却发现从中学习了很多东西，
也让我学会怎么处理那些问题学生

虽说这个课程很有帮助，
但是我的眼睛和头都不听我使唤，
一直打瞌睡，而且头也很痛，
不是这个课程很差，
而是太累的关系，
今天怎么说都是星期六，
是个拿来好好休息的一天 =x

这个讲师蛮不错，
她开了很多片段和图片给我们看，
那些都是一些关于残障人士如何振作起来，
她让我领悟到我们有手有脚是多么幸福的一件事，
而且这并不是理所当然的事，
哪怕有一天我们会突然间失去这些东西，
所以我们应该学会感恩和珍惜

在这个课程里学到的就是：
1. 我们每个人都有选择，应该选择好的而不是坏的
2. 与其伤心的那么痛苦，倒不如选择快快乐乐的过日子
3. 每天早上起身应该对着镜子说“我是个快乐、健康的人”
4. 如果觉得不对就应该改变，而且要参与，才能够成功
5. 不要把所有的东西都当做是理所当然的
6. 我们应该要懂得感恩和珍惜现在拥有的一切
7. 习惯是不断重复21次才能培养成的
8. 外表残，可是心和脑却千万不可以残
9. 我们应该要有正面的能量
10. 应该常常拥有好的内心语言才能够产生正面的思想与感觉

有的人会觉得这种课程是在洗脑，
但是我觉得这是见仁见智的，
因为我觉得她所说的东西是有道理的，
我相信我们的潜意识拥有强大的力量！
如果那些残障人士没有坚强的意志力，
他们怎么能振作起来？
连残障人士都没有轻易放弃，
为什么我们要放弃我们自己？？
我们有健全的身体，我们可以选择去做好的事情，
而不是用我们健全的身体去做一些伤天害理的事。
当你变成了死囚时，你已经没有选择的余地了

我从课程里抄了一段话，
我本身觉得很有意义..

我的信念

我只能经过这世界一次，
任何我可以做的好事，
或可以施于人们的善举，
且让我现在就去落实，
切莫再迟疑，
因为我不能祈望再经过这世界一次

` Poh Yee's belated birthday '

2009-07-17T15:05:00.002+08:00

went out gather with Lee Sun and Poh Yee,
both of them are my college frens,
our gang from 5 ppl become 3 ppl left

Angelly moving her own life,
i tried to msg her through frenster n facebook,
but she never reply any of my msg.
she changed her hp number without informing us,
duno wads in her mind

Siok Yoong went to Kelantan,
moving her life with her bf,
its normal for her for not contacting us,
czo she won't think of frens when she is with her bf.
we will be very shock if she contact us,
coz she must be facing problem when she find us

so, its only me, Lee Sun and Poh Yee
its good to have both of them,
coz we will contact each other whenever we free,
especially Lee Sun, coz she is the 1 tht contact me =p

we went to Poh Yee's kor kor stall to take our dinner,
coz her kor kor opened a mee stall with his fren,
so we go there eat and chat

Poh Yee's birthday is on 9th July,
but she can't off at tht day,
so we postpone till tis week den celebrate wit her

Poh Yee's little birthday cake :)

although we cant always gather around,
although we only gather for few hours,
but we do enjoy sitting down,
we do enjoy flashing back our sweet college memories,
we were happy to chit chat and laugh together,
i hope our friendship will never end

lastly, wish Poh Yee happy belated birthday,
hope she can stay pretty and faster get a nice bf ^^

` Transformers - Revenge of The Fallen '

2009-07-13T14:38:00.002+08:00

yday watched "Transformers - Revenge of The Fallen",
we went out late coz can't find Ai Wei's wallet,
we rush to Leisuremall by cab

we nearly missed out the tickets,
coz i booked the tickets on friday,
we hv to collect the tickets 45 mins b4 the movie starts,
luckily we able to make it =p

i watched the movie through kankan.com,
which downloaded by Ai Wei,
but her lappy's screen is very small,
and can't see clearly the way they transform

cinema cut off some part,
included Mojo dudu with another dog =x,
and some talking part oso cut off,
but its still very interesting and funny!!

the funniest scene is the decepticon on top of the pyramid,
trying to suck the pyramid to get the machine,
when it shows the decepticon's dan dan,
i laugh non stop =x

the cutest scene is when sam is going to coll,
he cant bring Bumblebee along,
and Bumblebee cry until it's tears like river :)

the saddest scene is when Optimus Prime died,
it tried to save Sam from being capture by decepticon,
and it died while Sam can't do anything

i think this movie will come out 3rd episod,
coz Megatron is still alive,
can't wait for the 3rd episod ^^

` Site Visit '

2009-07-12T14:04:00.004+08:00

mummy woke us up early in the morning,
mummy asked us wash up n go out eat breakfast,
including dafeiiyangq (lazy pig)

we went to Ulu Langat for the famous nasi lemak,
which hv to queue up to buy the nasi lemak,
but its not tht delicious coz very oily =x

after finished our breakfast,
we followed daddy go to his site which is at Ulu Langat,
we stay there see daddy lead his workers

#1. Daddy is leading his workers ^^

there was a dig machine,
Ai Wei said it looks like a crab,
so we called it "super crab,
the uncle so good in controlling the "super crab",
it can dig and move heavy things easily

#2. "super crab" is digging the road

#3. "super crab is moving heavy thing into lorry

#4. "super crab is moving sands into lorry

we saw some pheasants running beside the road,
they were not shrink from meeting us,
as i walked near to took photos,
they continue their food hunting -.-

#5. pheasants are running around

#6. pheasants are hunting food beside the road

there was a kitty that also not shrink,
i took 1 photo of it,
but Ai Wei keep on taking it's photo,
we found that one of it's eye is injured,
it just guai guai sit there let us take photo =p

#7. kitty guai guai let us take photo :)

#8. kitty:" don't take anymore, i m shy "

#9. kitty's injured eye ._.

although its very hot to stand under the sun,

but its very intersting to see how daddy work :)

` OFF DAY '

2009-07-11T13:39:00.002+08:00

yeah yeah yeah!!
finally can rest on Saturday,

i had to work every Saturday after last school holiday,
either curiculum or parent day or replacement class,
although those activity only spent half day,
but its a big different within work and off day

i am enjoying my off day by keep on9,
download songs, download Sogou 输入法, surf net,
its very relaxing than teaching,
teaching is damn tiring .__.

oh ya, i finally booked "Transformer 2" successfully!!
its on tomorrow 6pm at Leisure Mall's cinema,
will watch it with dafeiiyangq, Pik Yean and Ai Wei,
hope today wont rain at night,
if not dafeiiyangq cant come find me again,
i almost 1 month never see him -__-
gonna forgot how he look like =x

so excited for the movie,
hope tomorrow faster reach!!
Transformer 2 super nice!!
coz i watched it through net,
i desperate to watch it in cinema,
it will be more clear and excited ^^

tomorrow faster faster come!!
"Transformer 2" for me ^^

` My Offer Letter '

2009-07-09T13:32:00.002+08:00

finally get my offer letter!
after waited 5 months ,
i finally get wad i want ^^
but i hv to wait till September den can get my pay

haihs!! so poor now!!
tht day went in boss's room,
giv him sign paper,
he told me PIBG will pay my March and April's pay,
but might not be able to pay me the actual salary,
should be fair to me, n oso be fair for them
haihs.. its better than cant get any pay

but my letter wrote i will get pay started 19 May,
den how abt my pay b4 19 May??
i din check correctly,
i think i hv to go find them tok again,
duno y i so suay,
always met those suay things .__.

hope everything will become better after this!!

` 惊险的晚上 '

2009-07-05T02:34:00.004+08:00

原本打算跟碧燕和我妹去喝茶
当我们要上车时，
对面的邻居慌慌张张地跑出来，
她说他看见她家后面的屋顶有三个马来人拿着刀，
她怀疑他们要进屋打抢，
便害怕得跑出来通知我们

我们立刻告诉爸妈，然后报警
这里的警察真的是烂透了！
我们打999告诉那个女人所有的东西，
结果Kajang的警局又打电话来问我们发生了什么事，
他说那个女人是operator，结果我们又得从头说起

等了很久还未看见警察车的踪影，
我们也不期望他们会立刻赶来，
因为这里的警察是出了名的故意迟到，
等贼跑了，他们才会到 -.-
最可悲的是我们这一区是警察区!!

我们看见中间路那边有很多人走来走去，
便过去看个究竟
原来中间路旁边的屋子进贼，
更好笑的是、那三个马来人是那间屋子的人，
由于他们怀疑有两个贼藏在屋顶里面，
可是警察却姗姗来迟，
所以他们便自己爬到屋顶上调查

等了1个小时多后，
警察们才来到案发现场，
他们一下车便让我们看见他们的超级大肚子，
其中一个应该有十个月了，是时候要生了
他们并没有像戏里看到的警察们到四周问问邻居
直接进屋里看看，然后讲几句废话
最可笑的是他说“贼应该跑了，我看没事了”
然后便想收工回家做猪 -__-
盲的都知道贼跑了啦！
人家11点报警，他们12点多才到！！
这就是我们的警察的作风，
要我们怎么服他们？！！

#1. 姗姗来迟的警车（可惜我拍不到大肚警察）

由于屋主坚持说怀疑贼藏在屋顶里，
边打电话叫消防员来帮忙检查，
那个大肚警察还说了更好笑的话，
他问“那些贼会不会藏在床底下？”
哇佬！！我怀疑这个大肚警察有没有带脑出来！！
这么没脑的问题也好意思问出来 -__-

消防员到了后，他们随便找一间没人住的屋子，
在里面随便检查一番后，便想收工回家
结果经过屋主苦苦哀求警察派人上屋顶里面检查，
确定里面是没有人，让屋主与邻居们可以安心的睡觉
因为我们的屋顶里面是可以通的，
我和碧燕都觉得可能那些贼藏在里面，
又或者是藏在其中一间家挟持着别人

#2. 消防员来到了（他们的车很干净）

那些警察们诸多解释，很多借口，
就是不愿意帮忙我们检查，
可是屋主不死心，一直请求他们帮忙，
一直说：“minta tolong, sila tolong”
可能那边聚集了很多邻居，还有一位记者在场
如果那些警察不帮忙的话，
我们就肯定投诉他们，再加上记者在场，
他们唯有勉强的答应屋主并叫消防员上去检查

#3. 附近的邻居都来看的究竟（警察和消防员在空屋检查）

#4. 消防员们搬梯子准备爬上屋顶里检查

#5. 我亲眼看见消防员卖力地拉开梯子，很敬业！

#6. 敬业的消防员正往上爬

他们还真随便，说是检查一排屋子，
却不用半刻时间就回来了 -__-
算了吧，我们也不指望他们会抓到贼，
只是要他们做点事情，尽他们应该尽的责任

说真的，我真想看那个大肚警察把上去检查，
不知道他可以进到那个屋顶里面吗？
那个场景应该很好笑！！哈哈哈哈！！
我从一开始看到结束，所以有拍一些照片，
可是那些照片都不怎么清楚，
因为我没有flash light =x

经过这次的惊险，
我发现我们的警察真的是猪！
可能有好的，但是我看见的都是坏的！
反而让我看见消防员们的专业与敬业，
至少他们每个都是很fit的，
不像那些大肚警察！！
好吃懒做！

` fed up '

2009-07-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

duno wtf is going on to the GSC's website!!
been booked "Transformer 2" tickets
from afternoon till now,
but keep on failed!!

very dulan leh!!
once i had opened the link,
it load like snail -______-

so sien leh!!
wasted all my times!!
still keep on waiting now!!

i wish to watch it during tis weekend,
since the feedback of tis movie is very good,
many ppl said its very nice,
i wan to watch!! T_____T

"Transformer 2" wait for me!!
*pray pray pray*

` Beware '

2009-07-02T21:41:00.003+08:00

duno wad to update,
too many thgs happened,
but all small small thgs

the only thg currently in my mind,
is - BEWARE

we must beware of many thgs now,
beware of H1N1,
beware of the thgs u eat,
beware of ppl around u tht sick

no matter where i am,
i still hv to beware of many thgs,
other than H1N1 virus

there is another virus tht i should beware,
its not consider as a new virus,
its "gossip" virus,
where all company will has such virus

beware of ppl around,
beware of wad i wana say,
beware of the thgs tht i do,
beware of my attitude

beware, beware, beware!!
its very tiring to beware of all things..

` its SUNDAY!! '

2009-06-28T12:16:00.003+08:00

today is sunday,
suppose to go out watch movie,
but i hv to stay at home do nothing -_-

dafeiiyangq's doen't has transport,
coz his stupid brother crashed his mum's motor,
the motor duno sent to which shop repair =_____=

haihs, so boring neh .__.
i wan to watch TRANSFORMER 2!!
i wan to go out shop!!

i wan to do many things!!
but i didn't hv much money do to those things -.-
when will the salary release?!!!
arghhhh!!! money money money!!
all things need money T_________T

i duno y i so suay??!
my sch colleagues went interview,
they get their pay n letter 3 months later.
i already waited 4 months,
but i still hvnt get my letter or a single pay yet!!

whyyy??!!
haihs.. duwan think of it anymore,
watch anime is better than thinking these useless things .__.

its SUNDAY,
but i am not in sunday mood..

' l0ve music class '

2009-06-25T00:03:00.002+08:00

music is a way to release our soul,
it helps people to ease their pressure

currently, my timetable had changed after the sch holidays,
i hv to teach music class,
but luckily all my music classes are standard 3 students

i love music class n love to c the way they sing,
standard 3 students r so adorable!!
their music r very light together with simple lyrics
sometime, i will teach them some simple motions,
they will be happy to learn those simple motions

when i c they sing happily,
n do those motions happily,
i will be affected by their happiness :)

during music class,
there is no textbook, no exercise book n no homework,
i juz wan them to enjoy n relax during the class,
their smile light up my day :)

i l0ve music class,
n oso l0ve to teach them sing ^^

` Happy Daddy Day '

2009-06-21T18:49:00.002+08:00

its Daddy Day!!
last month planned to bring whole family eat Kim Gary,
coz got 50% discount on Father Day,
but daddy keep change his mind lately,
made me very unhappy

unhappy is not bcoz he cant make it as we planned,
its bcoz he keep change his mind,
keep on giving us hope tht we mb can go there eat,
cant mean cant, i dun like ppl keep changing his mind -.-

but daddy able to make it after all,
we bring my grandma-ah ma and er gu along,
since its father day n has 50% discount,
so the queue is super long,
we hv to wait for abt 15 numbers -.-

mummy's leg pain n ah ma oso cant stand too long,
but Maluri's Kim Gary din provide seat for customers sit,
so Ai Wei brought them go Starbucks there drink coffee,
while me n big sis stand in front of Kim Gary wait our turn

we waited abt 1 hr den reached our turn,
their service so lousy, not systematic
we went in ordered n eat,
but ah ma seems like dun like the food there,
all those foods with meat n ah ma is vegetarian -.-

we ordered 1 fried spaggeti for ah ma,
she dun like the taste n the coffee =x
its a bit rush coz big sis has meeting at 5pm,
we finished our food den rushed back home

its very cheap if got 50% discount,
we ordered all expensive meals,
total amount is RM130+,
after 50% its abt RM72,
super cheap n we ate till super full xD

while waiting daddy come fetch us,
mummy met 1 nearby de auntie,
she bought many thgs n her son seems like dun willing to fetch her,
tht auntie so pity, has to keep asked her son fetch

her son really bad, dun willing to drive in Jusco fetch her,
coz he said need to pay parking fees -__-
the parking fees only RM1 leh!!
summore if got Jusco Card, first 2 hrs is free,
if come in not more than 30mins, no need Jusco card oso free!!

tht auntie so pity, she asked me to explained to her son,
i asked her son came in n explained to him no need pay parking fees,
i oso told him his mum's will wait him in front of McDonald,
he sound so unwilling like tht -.- tht auntie so pity
me n mummy help tht auntie carried her things to McDonald,
den tht auntie wait at there

after a while, daddy came over fetch us
we went home happily ^^
2day done smthg good,
felt so happy :)

Happy Daddy Day!!
wish daddy healthy and happy always,
wish daddy's business shun shun li li :)

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

i felt better after expressed all my feelings..
talk talk talk,
argue argue argue,
tears tears tears,
calm calm calm,
talk talk talk..
everything settled after tht,
there was an answered at the end,
hope everything can turn better after this..

` c0nfuse '

2009-06-20T20:30:00.003+08:00

i m very confuse,
wad is going on now?

reality seems to take us apart,
everything seems to fade away..

its like no longer "us",
it become "u and me"..

where is the love?
it gone as time passed..

drama are fake,
fairy tales also fake..
at tis moment, everything become fake!!
the only thing real is......

h e a r t
and its super ache

i wonder y guys always break promise,
one like tht, another one oso like tht,
damn fed up with them!!

cant means cant,
i duno y must them lie!!
always said i dun believe them,
but do they ever think of wad had they done??
do they noe believe included "lie"?

DAMN FED UP!!

` Welcome Back '

2009-06-16T22:33:00.001+08:00

Ai Wei is back from Singapore,
she bought many things,
included my W580i,
but the ppl 4got put in my memory card -.-

damn tired coz i din nap a while,
Ai Wei came back keep tok wit me,
made me cant fall sleep -.-

we on9 till now =x
n had a wonderful dinner,
coz long time din eat mummy cook de dinner .__.

welcome back daddy, mummy and Ai Wei!! ﺕ

` miss my family '

2009-06-15T21:23:00.003+08:00

i very very miss my family!!
hate the feeling of being alone at home!!
its very inconvenient for me to get thg to eat =x
summore its very boring to face the cold wall,
i started to miss Ai Wei coz its more noisy to has her around,
but when she is around, she always kacau me =.=

tht day Ai Wei called from Singapore,
she said she help my sis buy 2nd hand SE hp - W580i,
she oso shun bian help me buy the same hp,
so 3 ji mui using the same hp model :)
actually, i plan to buy another SE hp (i duno wad model)
my bro using it right now n he said its very laggy n always hang -.-
nvm ba, juz simply buy 1 hp tht can take photo,
wait till i get my pay den buy a better 3G phone or mb i-phone?
but i dun like i-phone, very big like da fan shu =x

tok about my pay,
its June now but i hvnt get any pay since March -.-
i m super pok now!! i hv to declare bankrupt soon T__T
coz my bank din hv any saving anymore,
n i still owe many ppl money!! especially my mum .__.
i hope i can get my pay soon!!
*pray pray*

oh ya, 2day school start,
n its very special for me,
coz i hv to change my time table n teach new classes,
most of my class r standard 3,
they r better than higher standard students,
but i oso got 1 standard 6 class,
its super hard to handle them since they hv grown up,
n they r super duper noisy -.- haihs..

i hope 2ml faster come,
not to go sch let those monkeys gek me,
but its bcoz daddy, mummy n Ai Wei is coming back from Singapore 2ml,
they will bring my grandma along too ^^
tht means i no need to fan wad to eat for my lunch n dinner xD
i miss them very much T___________T

` happy sunday '

2009-06-14T23:35:00.001+08:00

after 3 weeks never meet,
dafeiiyangq finally come to find me,
we spend our sunday wit Pik Yean

we went to Leisure Mall's Neway sing k,
den me n dafeiiyangq watch "17Again" at Leisure Mall,
tht movie super nice, funny n got leng zai see =D~
i think its nicer than "Hannah Montena The Movie"

after tht we went to eat tong shui,
unfortunately, the sky rain heavily when we wana go home,
coz we ride motor, so we hv to wait the rain small
we went back home n take a nap,
coz i only slept 1 hr yday nite,
its bcoz i saw dafeiiyangq's hp got smthg made me cant fall sleep,
but its juz a misunderstanding -___-

woke up at 7pm, called Pik Yean,
she came over n we hv our dinner together,
plan to eat korean food de,
but ended up eat chinese food which is nearby the koean restaurant,
quite yummy n super full :)

Pik Yean came over my hse sit n watch tv together,
we watch "Genius Go Go Go",
damn funny, whole house full of laughs =x
Pik Yean n dafeiiyangq go back after tht

i had a great sunday!!
thanks to dafeiiyangq n Pik Yean,
but hv to keep all my lazyness,
coz 2ml school start, hv to face those monkeys again =.=

i am off to bed,
forced to sleep early,
coz 2ml hv to wake early -.-
nitey nite..

` w0nderful night '

2009-06-13T02:17:00.003+08:00

went out wit Pik Yean to watch "Night at The Museum 2"
after daddy, mummy n Ai Wei depart to Singapore.
we went to Cheras Selatan jusco to buy movie tickets,
luckily got nice seat to choose coz we 8pm bought 11pm movie

after tht we discuss wad to eat,
its very hard to decide wad to eat,
coz we hv to hang out till 11.45pm to watch tht movie,
we nearly stated all foods n at the end we choose Sushi Zanmai!!
so, 2 sha po went The Garden's Sushi Zanmai eat sushi,
by right we should watch movie at Megamall which is nearer,
but we already bought tickets at Cheras Selatan -.-

we left Sushi Zanmai at 10.30pm n simply walk around The Garden,
although those shops were closed,
but we still can walk around n c those cloths n shoes =x
we walked until 11.15pm den leave The Garden.
we caught in jam when we were leaving The Garden,
duno y 11pm still so many cars =x
luckily we able to reach Cheras Selatan on time ^^

i wish to watch "Night at The Museum 2" for a long long time,
tonight finally can watch it!! so excited xD
tis movie very nice n funny,
especially the way the characters tok,
super childish n funny =D
but Pik Yean n me found tht tis movie got a weird part,
which is the museums din hv any guards during nite time o.o
but overall, the movie is full of excitement n joyous :)

thanks Pik Yean very very much,
for always accompany me when i am alone,
for always fetching me here n there,
for always bring me go eat nice n delicious foods,
for always be there when i needed an ear,
for everything she do to me :)

cant fall asleep,
heard a voice that made me cant stop thinking.
am i too sensitive??
i started to think negatively again,
no matter how hard i advice myself,
it juz cant stop me from thinking of it!!
i hate such feeling..

` last h0liday '

2009-06-12T08:19:00.012+08:00

2day is my last weekday holiday,
hv to use it nicely

woke up on 7:15am,
went park walk walk wit Ai Wei,
went to eat breakfast wit daddy, mummy n Ai Wei after bath,
accompany mummy go pasar,
accompany mummy go clinic c doc,
i oso c doc since i cough for 1 week still hvnt cure -.-
went back home bath n eat medi,
here i am sitting in front pc dreaming again =x

yday had our dinner at a restaurant nearby our house,
daddy promised to treat 1 uncle eat sharkfin n abalone,
so we oso got chance to eat such thg,
1st time in my whole life,
n i found its nth special =x
mb i m born to eat those cheap food =p

we ate a lot n chat alot too,
tht uncle help us check our fortune,
he told me something which is very useful for me,
n made me felt more secure after hearing tht :)
thanks uncle for telling me so many thgs,
i will remember it n make it as a reference ^^
here are some photos taken yday..

#1. the abalone..

#2. abalone with mushroom, vege n seafood

#3. sharkfin ^^

i finally uploaded my hp photos into Ai Wei's lappy,
here are some photos taken in Connaught 2..

#4. my 4T students gave me surprise during Teacher Day 16/5/09

#5. behind tht teacher is me , so pretty (his drawing)

#6. tis tiny little student drew this for me, touched :)

#7. my Science class students - 4 Tulip '09

#8. my 5I class students drew tis on my last day 25/5/09

#9. its fun to teach them although some of them r very notti -.-

#10. thanks them very much :)

from next week onwards,

i hv to teach new class,

although main class is standard 3,

but i still hv to teach standard 5 n standard 6,

which is i very very dun willing to teach -.-

but no choice, i cant choose T___T

daddy, mummy n Ai Wei r going to Singapore later,

left me alone at tis empty house T___T

luckily Pik Yean later nite accompany me,

i hope 2day can watch "Night at The Museum 2",

pray hard for a nice seat n hv tickets for both of us .___.

felt more secure with the relationship between me and dafeiiyangq
hope nothing bad will happen again .__.

` St0machache '

2009-06-11T15:34:00.005+08:00

2day woke up at 7am,
stomachache made me cant sleep,
whole morning keep woke up n go toilet,
i think i went more than 5 times -__-

its a good sign to hv stomachache,
it means i can throw out those unuse thgs,
n can reduce my weight *kakaka*

sit in front of my pc whole day,
done nothing except staring at Facebook,
while playing Restaurant City -__-

i am super boring,
until got many spider web around me,
soooner or later i mb can create a movie called "Spiderwoman" =x

yday planned to watch "Night at The Museum 2",
but cant reserve ticket or left front seat ticket,
so we postponed to friday,
but i tried to book ticket juz now,
the cinema provide in front 4 rows for reservation -___-

i hope 2ml plan will on,
if not i hv to stay at home alone,
coz my family is going Singapore 2ml night,
while i hv to stay at home watch house T___T

i oso wan to go Singapore!!
i hope i can take leave n follow them T______T

` another boring day '

2009-06-10T16:17:00.003+08:00

school holidays passed 1 week,
n i spent last week staying at home deaming,
plus line got prob,
everyday lied on sofa,
pressing the tv's remote to find any nice channel to watch

tis week is the last week of my school holidays,
n i continue stay at home dreaming,
but its better than last week,
coz i can on9 while dreaming =x

found tis song through Hannah Montana The Movie,
sang by Taylor Swift,
noticed her through her "Love Story",
summore her name "Swift" is the dream car i wana buy,
Suzuki Swift!! (continue dreaming)

I never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door there's so much more
I never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

Baby you showed me what living is for
I don't want to hide anymore orrrreee

You lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier craizer

things settled yday,
if i never made a breakthough the situation,
i duno i still hv to stay in such cold situation till when,
it made me few nites cant sleep well,
luckily everything is solved at the end

i truely hope that u wont break ur promise again

my family is going to Singapore tis friday,
n i hv to stay at home alone,
coz stupid school holiday will end on tis week,
n they will be back on next tuesday -_-
i tot i can spent my holiday by travel to any places,
but ended up spent it at home .__.
i wonder will i spent my weekend alone again?? haihs..

crazier crazier~~
crazier crazier crazier!!
i m gonna become crazy soon if continue such boring life .__.

` 心情篇 '

2009-06-09T13:45:00.003+08:00

又一天过去了
换来的是失望
而这种感觉开始令人厌恶

一个简单的脑袋
装着很多复杂的情绪
慢慢的被情绪淹没

当一个人不开心时，
总是喜欢埋藏在多人的地方，
希望被那种场合与气氛传染，
让自己暂时与悲伤画上一个句号

然而，当人潮离开、回归自我时，
那种讨厌的情绪很快就冲上头来，
无论你怎么抗拒、怎么否认，
它就是不肯离你而去

为什么快乐那么难持久，
悲伤却可以永远跟随你！
最可笑的是有口劝人，
却无法说服自己！
无论用什么办法，它都不肯离开

昨天夜晚被睡神抛弃的我
偶然发觉遗弃许久的情绪突然来访
夜晚难眠，由那失落的感觉陪我渡过
而那突然来访的情绪陪我入眠...

回想起开心的日子，
却令人倍感伤心

` capricious '

2009-06-08T23:28:00.003+08:00

finally can on9,
stupid modem spoilt for 1 week -.-
i think it kena strike by lightning
wasted RM230 to buy 1 new modem,
super pok now, i wonder when my salary release??!!

lately, my brain gone blank,
tis song came into my mind,
i remember i love tis song very much,
it reminds me of many thgs..

喜欢听歌感人的歌
它让我觉得爱是对的
睡不着我就醒着
不再让日子被打乱了

寂寞很吵我很安静
情绪很多我很镇静
因为投入所以放弃
不愿再被痛醒

固执算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到结果
终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避让感情犯错

喜欢唱歌动人的歌
它让我获得一点心得
得不到我就放掉
不去碰触到我的需要

寂寞很吵我很安静
情绪很多我很镇静
因为投入所以放弃
不愿再被痛醒

承诺算不算任性的要求
人总是不能太容易感动
当爱失去自我失去包容
只想要从混乱解脱

固执算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到结果
终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避让感情犯错

喜欢听歌动人的歌
它让我觉得爱是对的

am i too self-willed?
or the person too easy going?
is it my problem?
or its others' problem?

many question turning round n round,
no ppl able to giv me an answer,
bcoz there aint any person in my mind.

empty mind
with empty soul

` HOLIDAYs!! '

2009-05-29T21:24:00.002+08:00

many thgs happened in tis week,
bad thgs more than good thgs

been tricked by ppl, nearly kena scold by "boss"
everyday hv to rush paper works till mid9 den sleep
hv to mark tons of exercise books

BUT..
all these stupid works will be leave aside start from now,
coz 2ml onwards, i hv 2 weeks holidays!!
although i still hv to mark many exercise books at home,
but its better than stay at sch facing those kids -.-

i found tht my sore throat when i reached home,
i think its bcoz i lack of sleep these few days,
plus hv to shout n teach in class,
made my throat become worse n worst

hv to rest well n take good care of my throat during tis holiday,
i duwan my voice become like those auntie voice .__.
i will enjoy my holidays,
but 1st, i hv to take a good rest 2nite ^^

ஂ happy holidays :)

with l0ves۰•
thengq

` lucky nite '

2009-05-23T22:36:00.003+08:00

juz came back from Yulek,
attended sch's teacher day's dinner

those teacher told us,
2day got lucky draw,
n all teacher tht attended the dinner will get a present

we tot its a way to persuade us to attend the dinner,
but they were right,
they really provide many hamper for the lucky draw,
n every teacher get 1 hamper for the lucky draw

normally i m very suay in lucky draw session,
mostly get nothing for lucky draw,
BUT 2day i get the biggest hamper in the lucky draw,
i was so shocked when they called my number,
tis is the first time i get such good present in lucky draw =p

btw, our table so "ong"
the i get the biggest hamper,
while another teacher sitting wit us get the second large hamper,
i said we can put it 2gether n become KLCC =x

i m so happy 2day,
coz i finally mix wit the sch teacher,
chat alot n joke around wit them,
they r quite fun n nice :)
mb its bcoz our age r merely the same

sometime after a hard work,
its fun to relax our mind n soul,
by having fun wit frens
although we r abit 38 n sot,
but we r enjoying ourself ^^
n we wont bother other's perception

ஂ 2day is my lucky nite :)

with l0ves۰•
thengq

` 故事篇 - 奇妙的动物园 '

2009-05-23T14:23:00.004+08:00

话说有一间专门管理猴子的动物园，
动物园里有很多很多的猴子，
那里也有很多位管理猴子们的管理人员，
管理人员们的工作就是教导猴子们一些基本的课程，
好让它们长大后有能力照顾自己。

这间动物园的管理人员是有分层次的。
最高层当然是动物园的园长，
动物园里的管理人员都称他为老大，
第二层则有四位副园长协助园长办事，
接下来的就是负责不同级别的管理人员们。

由于动物园里的猴子实在是太多了，
所以园长把猴子们以岁数分成6个级别，
以方便管理人员们给予它们各种不同的训练。
当猴子们在动物园毕业后，它们会被派到更好的动物园进行培训。

然而在这群猴子当中，有些猴子想要当猴子王。
猴王带着它的“猴仔”到处惹事生非、欺负其它弱小的猴子，
还把管理人员的劝告和警告当成耳边风。
再加上动物园的园长规定管理人员不能鞭打猴子们，
这让管理人员们束手无策，也让那个猴王和它的“猴仔”变本加厉！

今天，动物园的老大召开会议。
老大在会议里提及动物园里的纪律问题，
老大：一个好的管理人员必须负责任以及懂得用什么方法解决问题。
老大：最近动物园有很多纪律问题，尤其是级别5的猴子们。
老大：级别5的猴子们几乎每天都会有事情发生的。
老大：如果那个级别的猴子有问题，就代表管理的人员也有问题。
老大：因为那位管理人员不够严厉，所以猴子们才会这么放肆。
老大：一位好的管理人员，不管在那个级别，都可以把猴子们管理得很好
管理人员： ......

今天，有一位管理人员由于需要培训猴子而迟到。
老大没问理由便讽刺他是不负责任的管理人员。
那位管理人员为动物园尽心尽力，付出了他的时间，
他不求回报的培育有艺术天分的猴子们，
也为动物园得过不少奖状，提高动物园的名誉。
虽然他有时处理事情有点冲动，
可是也不至于需要得到这样的讽刺。

今天这个会议开得让人有点不舒服，
不只是老大说的话有点刺耳，
而且好象有点文不对题的感觉，
说是要开A的会议，结果好象与A无关 -.-

ஂ 故事到此结束~ 待续...

with l0ves۰•
thengq

` appeal result '

2009-05-21T19:17:00.004+08:00

2day the result of KPLI interview released,
tis result is for those who appeal to attend the KPLI interview,
those who put a tiny little hope for the interview,
n the result is......

Harap Maaf, maklumat 850515xxxxxx, KEE AI THENG telah kami proses.
Nama anda tidak tersenarai dalam panggilan rayuan temu duga
Kursus Perguruan Lepasan Ijazah (KPLI) dan j-QAF Ambilan 2009.

Terima kasih atas minat anda dalam bidang perguruan.

my tiny little hope gone,
my teacher dream gone,
i hv to wait until next year,
pray hard hope it wont stop tis course for degree holder .__.

ஂ jia you n continue become a tempo teacher .__.

with l0ves۰•
thengq

` kim gary lover wit family '

2009-05-20T19:59:00.000+08:00

went to kim gary again after last saturday,
tis time is with my family,
its the 1st time i go kim gary with whole family,
coz daddy normally dislike such thg

last saturday went to Sungei Wang's kim gary,
tis time we went to Jusco Maluri's kim gary,
their service SUPER good n their dishes is more delicious,
if compared wit Sungei Wang n Megamall (tis 2 place sux, especially Megamall!!)
so we decided to go Maluri's kim gary again :)

tot can get 50% for mother day,
but the term n condition SUPER small!!
its stated "on mother day", n i din saw it =x
so ended up me, ai wei n da jie treat daddy, mummy n auntie ah yuk eat

daddy ordered many dishes,
eat till super full -__-
we dated auntie ah yuk asked her family to come again on father day,
coz i got 50% discount on father day =p

after ate till super full,
we went to Maluri window shopping a while,
den went back home,
n i hv to continue mark my exam papers .__.

ஂ fall in love wit kim gary :)

with l0ves۰•
thengq