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【 m e s s y 】

【 m e s s y 】

messy blog with messy feelings
November is totally not a good month 4 me
many unhappy thgs happened
all matters come in the same time,
n i m lack of strength to handle all these problems!!

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tedious weekend by doing nth
since chee jobless, its impossible 4 him to find me
my frens seem to be bz with their stuff too
most important is..
i got no money go hang out with frens .__.

from tis month onwards,
i think i will hv to pass my weekend tediously
even i get my salary,
i still not able to hv extra money for entertainment

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next month -- December,
will be an eventful month for me
7 Dec : attend fren's wedding dinner at KL (we same age but she so fast married T_T )
10 Dec - 11 Dec : attend Ai Wei's graduation ceremony at Singapore
27 Dec : attend cousin's wedding dinner at Johor Bahru

i love December!!
coz December full of holidays!!!
8 Dec : Public Holiday - Qurban
10 Dec - 11 Dec : took Annual Leaves
25 Dec : Public Holiday - ding dong bell, ding dong bell~~ hohoho, Merry X'mas ^^
27 Dec : took Annual Leave - work half day but hv to take 1 day T_T
29 Dec : Public Holiday - Awal Muharam
1 Jan : Public Holiday - Happy New Year!!! xD

after december den its bonus time!!
after i get my bonus, den its... =x
i hope next yr can reach earlier,
i hope next yr no economic crisis .__.

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juz received dafeiiyangq call
i m totally speechless after our conversation
he get nth for ending his partnership with tht fei lao!!
i duno y i m fking angry n he is fking calm
company no money is not a good reason 4 not paying a single cent 2 him!!
even the basic capital cost oso din giv him
n he stupid dao go say nvm!!
i knew tht fei lao wont pay much money to dafeiiyangq
but i never thought tht fei lao wont pay back a single cent to him!
currently no $$ is nvm, but can pay back next time!
suan liao! since the $$ is not my $$,
wad 4 i so angry since the person doesn't concern at all!!
totally speechless!!!!

i duno y i so angry?!
y he never bother to listen to my advice?
y everytime thgs happened den regret?
y he never think b4 he do anythg?
is it a good choice to continue??

ஂ tedi0us, excited, angry, fed up, down, confuse.... messy!!

with l0ves۰•
thengq

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theng

9:44 PM | Sunday, November 30, 2008 | 0 Comment

【 lies 】

【 lies 】

i m fed up by listening those lies
i m fed up to be the middle man of both of u
i m fed up of answering those stupid questions
i m exhausted of acting nothing

dun keep using the same lies to us
we live together so long
we knew ur characteristic
u always said u will change
u always said u wont drink again
but ended up broke every single promises u made!!

i respect u bcoz u r my dad
but u always said those stupid thgs when u were drunk
n i always cried bcoz of ur words!!
now even mummy oso duwan bother u
n i stupid dao think tht u r so pity,
although u r the 1 tht made thgs like tht

i really dun understand!!
y must guys go drink when they felt fan?
i dun think its a way to solve the problems,
n u r wasting money on those beers!!
we cant blame ur those pig frens / dog frens,
they cant force u to drink if u dun willing to drink

i m tired!! super tired!!
y guys never think of the consequences b4 they do anythg?
so old liao, ownself got health prob still not scare!
never noe we will worry if he drunk n drive back home!!
i really duno wads he thinking in his mind!!!

ஂ So many lies listening to you.. 天亮后, I will be fine

with l0ves۰•
thengq

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theng

8:32 PM | Saturday, November 29, 2008 | 0 Comment

【 m a t r i i m 0 n y 】

【 m a t r i i m 0 n y 】

yday 27-11-2oo8 (thursday) is dafeiyangq's bday
we held our marriage in Pro-Ms too =)
the wedding used up many time to prepare,
coz both of us duno how 2 invite guest to our wedding =x
ended up, the wedding started on 10.45pm like tht
ii uploaded some ss from our wedding ceremony
thanks for those buddies tht attended our wedding ^^

#1. ' With great joy, we come together to join iLoveTheng and AiTheng in matrimony. '

#2. ' Because they have so affirmed, in love and knowledge of the other,
so also do i declare that iLoveTheng and AiTheng are now husband n wife. '

#3. ' Congratulations, You can now click on Assistant Nancy to go to the photo room.
The couple must relog to see the ring effects. '

#4. Thanks XxkingXx's Weather Mega and Brownie aka qiao ke li's mega

#5. dafeiiyangq x3` dafeiizhuu

#6. Jinnie and her dear took our place o.O they wana re-marry?

#7. this ss abit messy =x all ppl not standing still .__.

#8. finally settled down, some ppl went out =x ` x3 dafeiiyangq '

#9. h0mg h0ng, me and dafeiiyangq in our wedding garden ^^

#10. ` Thanks those who attend our wedding. x3`iLoveTheng '

#11. bb's mega. `thanks~ x3 Babe Win, Alex KOR, qiao ke li x3 imercenaries, BL '

#12. OeiOei aka xan xan's mega to grats on our married x3`xan xan

#13. i dislike tis ring effects =x trying to burn those birds =x

too bad xiao xin cant attend our wedding .__.

but i think she was too tired after work,

7 Dec 08 is xiao xin and xan xan marriage ^^

tht day i cant attend too coz hv to attend fren's wedding dinner

hope them enjoy themselves and happy together xD

ஂwondering if tis is a real matrimony... *piak* dreaming again =x

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thengq

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theng

9:02 PM | Friday, November 28, 2008 | 0 Comment

【真的，我没事】

【真的，我没事】

最近看完『篮球火』后，爱上这首歌
应该说戏里面第一次播放这首歌，
就深深的打动我的心 ^^
用沧桑的声音配上抒情的钢琴
听了会让人打从心里感动 =)

曲名： 真的，我没事
歌手： 符致逸

On and on, the pain goes on
And it wouldn't, just wouldn't die
我情愿比想象中软弱且无能为力
对你的眼神选择了逃避
恨自己恨自己

On and on the pain lives on
It's hurting so much more
就让我被悔不当初的罪恶吞去
惩罚过后能否带来解脱
I'll be fine I'll be fine

So many cried listening to God
让坚强不只是种伪装
So many lies listening to you
天亮后 I will be fine

On and on the pain goes on
And I just don't know how to cope
伸手抱住自己是否就能够不再空虚
最后信念别放弃
I will be fine I will be fine

So many cried listening to you
希望你能再给我力量
So many lies listening to you
什么时候 I will be fine

当我再也不对任何事期待
只剩下你只剩下你
尤其当我舍弃以前见你
请你要微笑不语

So many cried listening to you
希望你能再给我力量
So many lies listening to you
什么时候 wu wo... I will be fine

ஂ ❤ 深深的爱上了这首歌 ` i will be fine, i will be fine!! '

with l0ves۰•
thengq

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theng

2:02 PM | | 0 Comment

【救生圈的故事】

【救生圈的故事】

很多人都知道救生圈的用处
那就是在紧急时刻拯救那些无助的人
通常我们搭船都可以看到救生圈
放在紧急箱里，以方便人们使用
在没有什么特殊的紧急情况
救生圈通常是被遗忘在一旁的
到了紧急事情发生，人们第一个就想到救生圈

得到救生圈协助的人们
为了拯救自己，会紧紧的抓住它
而救生圈也会尽它所能
帮助人们到一个安全的地方
当人们获救抵达岸后
就把救生圈遗弃在一旁
救生圈就这样被海浪打回海里

被打回海里的救生圈漂浮在海里
一直被海浪拍打着它那脆弱的身体
救生圈在海的中央漂浮不定
那种不安的心情让它觉得很无助
看着前方的岸却到不了
不管它怎么努力，还是抵达不了
没有人理会救生圈的伤心与难过
没有人关心救生圈的心情与感受

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大风的吹打把我从思绪中吹醒

收起思绪，望着无际的天空

很多事物往往都是擦身而过

现实的社会让人们变得自私

救生圈不顾一切的去拯救受难的人

它可以不求别人的回报

可是却弄得自己伤痕累累..

ஂ救生圈.. 我不要！

with l0ves۰•

thengq

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theng

3:00 PM | Thursday, November 27, 2008 | 0 Comment

❤ HappY BirthdaY ❤

❤ HappY BirthdaY ❤

today 27/11/08 is dafiiyangq's bday
happy birthday to dafeiiyangq ^^
may all ur dreams come true

i feel bad 4 not celebrate his bday with him
its on weekday n he got no car
i think of tou tou go find him, giv him a surprise
i noe if he knew it he confirm ask me dun go de
coz he duwan i take train go find him myself
summore if late nite he dun let me take train alone
n he got no car rite now, cant fetch me back...
ok! the conclusion is i din celebrate his bday wit him =x

i only able to celebrate wit him in maple juz now
i m super tired, but hv to wait till 12am say happy bday to him
luckily he can on9 b4 12am ^^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY dafeiiyangq
x33 u so much!!

i wish i got car
i wish i can celebrate with him
this is the picture i imagine ^^

ஂhope dafeiiyangq happy always ﺕ

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thengq

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theng

12:05 AM | | 0 Comment

【三文治】

【三文治】

我今天当了一天的三文治
我也清楚的明白三文治的感受了
被两片面包夹住的感觉很不好受
还要被两片超大的面包夹住
更加难受，而且被夹得快要窒息了！！

两个都是老板，两个说的都得听
一个叫我做，一个叫我别做
我的上司刚好去上课程，不在公司
没有人能帮我做决定！！
我真想把我分成两个！！
那么一个做，一个不做
刚好可以达到他们的要求

我知道我没有通知大的是我的错
我应该负一半的责任
可是用不着用那种语气和眼神看我
我被吓到了？还是我觉得委屈？
为什么眼睛会湿湿的？？
为什么不管我怎么努力却控制不了那些水滴？

我能怪谁？毕竟我也有错
可是通知她的话我觉得对那个叫我做的人很不尊敬
不喜欢这种感觉，感觉像在打小报告那样
结果就变成了热腾腾的的三文治
被人家夹来夹去的

他说我只是负责“打”建议书
不是负责“做”建议书！！
现在没有人做，为什么我可以打建议书出来？！
很好咯，这个时候还可以抓我的语病 -.-

他那时候一直问我为什么不早点通知他？
他还说说不能怪那个叫我做的人
真的不应该怪那个人的
那么就是说要怪我咯？

那时候真的有点不知所措
结果热流开始涌出眼睛
我真的很生气！！
气自己为什么那么不争气？！
为什么那么容易就流泪？！

那时有老板、一个男同事和一个女同事
结果不出我预料
那个男同事事后真的取笑我！
一直说我是cry baby，一直弄那些无聊的样子
他就是那个我被打强后一直拿来开玩笑的人

刚才我的上司有打电话给我
她吩咐我做一些东西
她还问我一切还顺利吗？
我说还好，他问我是不是不方便说？
我只能说是 =x
如果她在的话，一切问题都能解决
她一定会站在我那边维护我的
我很想念她！！ T__T

虽然老板说他的语气重了点
可是他没有责怪我的意思
但是他给我的感觉就是他在责怪我
可能是我的眼泪让他说了这些东西
我最讨厌做错东西拿哭来解决的人
很遗憾的是我竟然是那种人！！

算了，要怪只能怪我自己没通知老板
也只能怪我自己不争气不把眼泪吞回去！！
我讨厌这样的我！！
讨厌这样懦弱、眼浅的我！！

` 如果早知道眺望天空，
我就不会流眼泪！'

ஂ我不想再当三文治了！！！ *ROAR*

l0ves۰•
thengq

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theng

5:33 PM | Wednesday, November 26, 2008 | 0 Comment

【新课题】

【新课题】

今天听MY FM听到关于黄明志这个人的报导
曾经轰动一时的黄明志又卷土重来了
而且他这次发表的东西比上一次更离谱
他这次的作品叫《丘老师ABC时间》
本人觉得真的有点粗俗和低贱

本人是蛮欣赏他那敢作敢言的性格
和他那创作歌曲的才华
可是这次他的作品有点过分！
把ABC教成那种下流的东西
连explain和make sentence都是那种不好的东西
如果是平时自己与朋友随便玩玩还好
可是放上网就有点过分
而且让人觉得他很不尊重女性！

我从YouTube找到关于这个课题的video
它的video分成3个部分
part 1 & part 2 不方便放出来
（要看的话自己去YouTube找吧）
part 3 是他创作出来的歌..

一个这么会创作的人
把他的才华用在这样的东西
实在有点浪费

我想这次连华社也不会站在他那边
他这次的作品实在有点过分
希望这个课题不要像之前那样
挑起那些敏感课题
最后闹得满城风雨 -.-
唉，实在浪费 ..

ஂ但愿这个课题可以快一点结束

l0ves۰•
thengq

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theng

3:56 PM | Tuesday, November 25, 2008 | 0 Comment

【 m a p l e 】

【 m a p l e 】

ii plying a new maple private server, Pro-MS
xiao xin intro me ply tis server de
quite stable, but will lag sometime
mb its my line prob or wad =x
if interested can come n join me ^^
http://174.36.148.210/ - Pro-MS's web site

my guildmates all very frenly n helpful ^^
love them very much xD
i uploaded some ss ii took
juz some random maple ss =)

Babe Win, Alex KOR and Me ^^

ii l0ve tis hair, but Babe Win said tis hair cant wear girlish shirt .__.

x3 Babe Win, always help me n listen to my unhappy thgs ^^

ke ai de Qiao Ke Li *bites*, me and Babe Win

Alex KOR train me in Horntail ^^

they treat me so nice, made me so touched T__T

Xiao Xin and me, x3 her so much!!

Triple Girls~ Babe Win, Xiao Xin and Me ^^

boss stuck at there =x

juz took tis ss ^^

Me, Xan Xan and dafeiiyangq, x3 xan xan

below de ss is abt me n dafeiiyangq
but more on dafeiiyangq

his haircut experience ^^

dafeiiyangq mati =x namo namo~

tis boom boom hair so ugly -.-

tung ku chee =x remind me of my baby tung ku from maplesea

tis hair so weird, got blood de o.O

niao wo hair xD

tis 1 duno wad hair style? =x

super funny!! i cant stop laughing tht time =x

tis hair so old style -.-

finally, he changed to tis hair ^^ more shuai =)

sometime its fun to play maple

since i got so nice de frens

it can help me 4got those unhappy thgs =)

ஂx33 my Pro-MS's frens ^^

l0ves۰•

thengq

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theng

10:39 PM | Monday, November 24, 2008 | 0 Comment

【 w0rn-0ut 】

【 w0rn-0ut 】

juz reached home
i m exhausted
no more energy
n super full =x

went to 1 Utama meet Poh Yee, Lee Sun & Siok Yoong
pei them shop from 4pm-9pm
they said 2.30pm meet
i consider late liao, coz i 3.30pm reached
but ended up they 4pm+ den reached -__-
luckily 1 Utama not much malays
ppl around me were chinese =)

i m totally worn-out!!
yday nite cant sleep well
its bcoz of tht chou fei yang la!
ownself cant sleep still made ppl woke up -__-
he duno watch wad stupid tv program
laugh till so loud!!
i duno woke up how many times
all bcoz of his 38 laughter
i wish to go out *piak* him
but i m too lazy to walk out =x

i told dafeiiyangq,
now i heard his laughter will hv nightmare
coz he woke me up from my lovely dream!!
*piak* him!! -.-

its time to sleep
if not 2ml i will become a zombie in office =x
nite nite..

ஂexhausted but i m happy coz can meet poh yee, lee sun & siok yoong ﺕ

l0ves۰•
thengq

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theng

11:31 PM | Sunday, November 23, 2008 | 0 Comment

【开心】

【开心】

今天是个很特别的日子
因为今天小欣来KL xD
超开心的！！
自从上一次见面后
就很久没见到她了
我想应该是一月的事情
她还很贴心的准备了小礼物给我
这次我也准备了一个小礼物给她
希望她会喜欢那个小天使 ^^

因为碧燕迟出导致我也迟去见小欣
到了又找不到地方
我们10pm+才见到小欣
把礼物给她，介绍大肥羊
我们连晚餐都没吃就带小欣回她的酒店

原本的计划都泡汤了 .__.
还打算跟小欣一起吃晚餐的
可是我们怕没有火车回家
所以带小欣搭LRT回到她的酒店就走了
那时已经11pm了
如果有车的话我们可以陪她吃了晚餐才回家

我记得在等着火车的当儿
跟大肥羊聊起他工作的事情
我问他：“如果你们真的拆股了，你的朋友会变少了吗？”
他说：“不知道，不过不用紧。反正我已经习惯一个人了”
在那一瞬间，我突然发觉大肥羊怎么让人感觉那么孤单？
我握着他的手说：“你还有我嘛”
希望他能够尽快找到一份工作 ^^

结果那个笨蛋火车12am+才到
早知道那么迟就跟小欣吃了晚餐才回 T__T
那个卖车票的人骗人的
说什么11.30pm是最后一列火车
结果我们等到12am++
还我到1am+才吃我的晚餐 .__.

可是还是很开心
因为我见到我可爱的小欣了 ^^
她长得很高很高，也很可爱
可能久没见了，忘了她的高度
我们还拍了一些照片，
最后说再见的时候还抱抱小欣
小欣好好抱哦！！超舒服的 ^^
BABE WIN!! XIAO XIN SO NICE TO HUG!!
HUGGIES XIAO XIN x33 xiao xin xin

ஂ我开始想念小欣了 .__. 要好好照顾自己哦 ﺕ

l0ves۰•
thengq