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百年不读e-mail的我，
刚才突然心血来潮检查我的hotmail，
被我发现一篇很有意义的文章

是一篇关于知足天使与贪婪恶魔的故事，
话说有一个老恶魔想扰乱人间幸福的人们，
他派了小恶魔去人间打扰一位知足的农夫，
然而却一个个的失败，因为农夫非常知足

老恶魔还是不死心，
他又派另一个恶魔去打扰农夫，
这个恶魔教农夫如何耕种，
是农夫变得一个富裕的人

农夫因而变成了另一个人，
他再也不是以前那个知足的农夫了，
他不但不勤奋工作，而且还非常浪费的吃喝，
还刻薄他的仆人，不让他们吃饭

人心真的非常险恶，
恶魔只不过让农夫拥有比他需要的更多而已，
这样就可以引发农夫人性中的贪婪，
把原本容易知足、安分守己的农夫，
变成一个欺善怕恶、又胖又懒散的恶人

心若改变，你的态度跟着改变；
态度改变，你的习惯跟着改变；
习惯改变，你的性格跟着改变；
性格改变，你的人生跟着改变。

献每一个在为梦想努力奋斗的你，
当我们在努力追求梦想的同时，
千万不要忘了最初的本心。

with l0ves۰•
theng

9:16 PM | Monday, November 16, 2009 | 0 Comment

disturbed

i was rather disturbed by my feelings,
i hate this kind of feelings,
it made me cant sleep

i wonder y i hv such feelings,
i m like on pins and needles,
don't hv any mood for anything

is it bcoz of those lies?
or is it bcoz of those motions?
i don'nt know!!
it just made me feel very uneasy

sometimes, i hope we can return to the past,
at least i m happier in the past..

with l0ves۰•
theng

11:48 AM | Sunday, November 15, 2009 | 2 Comment

bad dream

i had a bad dream just now,
while i was taking my nap

its not a horror dream,
not a wuu wuu dream,
i m so loss and helpless in the dream

i wonder is it becoz my colleague told me her nightmare,
but her nighmare got wuu wuu,
mine was abt i lost my way,
and i hv to walk back home myself,
and the distance is super far -__-

in tht dream,
i kena bully by few malays nearby my house,
they looted my hp while i was calling chee to help me,
i keep screaming n screaming till the malays scared of me,
and they giv me back my hp O.O
but they keep follow me to my hse,
i was so scare and then i frightened till i woke up

the first thg i did was sms chee,
coz i wana tell ppl abt tis dream,
to release my feeling,
after sms-ed, i went to sleep again,
coz i was so tired after the dream -__-

the feeling of lost,
the intimidate feelings,
its like a reflection of the real life..

with l0ves۰•
theng

7:30 PM | Friday, November 13, 2009 | 0 Comment

chances

chances passed by,
chances just flew away easily

suddenly felt so down,
when i think back,
those chances just passed by my side

i did appreciate those chances,
but it juz flew away tht easily.
is it bcoz i don't hv any luck?
is it bcoz i m not tht hardwork enough?
or is it bcoz i m tht lousy?

today i heard my colleague said
moe is opening a holiday course for spm or stpm tempo teacher,
my colleague plan to apply tis course,
coz she hasn't get her degree cert when she apply tempo teacher

i don't hv the chance to apply tis course,
coz i was a degree holder tempo teacher,
so i m not applicable for tis course,
chance just passed through like tht

tis whole year,
i applied two times,
and i failed two times,
don't even hv the chance to go for interview,
so disappointed..

hope it will hv another chance for next year,
cheer up, jia you :)

with l0ves۰•
theng

8:42 PM | Wednesday, November 11, 2009 | 0 Comment

sunny sunday ^^

its a great sunny sunday,
without thunder, without lightening,
most important is without raining :)

chee said wana find me on saturday nite,
but unfortunately, it was raining heavily,
so he promised to find me on sunday,
i didn't put much hope on it,
coz i knew he will over sleep,
or it might be raining again -.-

i called chee after i woke up,
its abt 10am plus,
he said he still tired (knew it),
so i hang up and let him sleep,
den i went downstairs watch tv

chee called me around 12pm,
he asked me bath liao ma,
i hvnt bath coz i thought he won't be able to wake up,
but he said he reached my house already O.O
tis is the first time he so punctual =x

prepared everything and went out with him,
went to Leisure Mall coz we wana watch "Poker King",
chee was hungry so we went to A&W,
coz i said i wana drink root beer ^^ yummy~
the movie was not bad, abit lame and abit shocked at the end

after the movie, i suggested go back earlier,
coz i scare it will rain later since we ride chee's boo boo go,
but chee said he wana shop a while,
we went back home after lunch

finally can meet chee,
since we abt 1 month plus didn't meet,
part of the reason is bcoz of the weather,
another reason is bcoz i m not free =x
had a great sunny sunday tis week :)

with l0ves۰•
theng

8:56 PM | Sunday, November 8, 2009 | 0 Comment

outing

today went out wit kim gary lovers,
met Cheng and Ting on 1pm,
lof coz at our beloved kim gary restaurant :)

been there since 1pm till 5pm plus,
been chatting non stop,
throw out unhappy things,
shared joyous things,
had a great time meeting them

i will treasure this happy moment,
coz if dear Cheng get the teacher course,
we might not be able to meet tht often,
especially during sch holidays,
i earnestly hoped that dear can get the course,
since its a very rare opportunity,
jia you ya, lovely dear ^^

we went back home on 5pm plus,
me and Ting took the same lrt,
the train was so crowded with ppl in red t-shirt,
and most of them are black black guy =x
i think they were heading to watch football math -__-
we had been squished like sardine,
there was no more place to squish,
but those red smelly guys keep on pushing,
made me and Ting nearly fell down D:

when i reached my station,
they dun willing to giv me go out!!
i pissed off and pushed them aside,
and end up hurt my arm -__-
stupid red shirt smelly guys!!
@#@$$%$^$&^&^*%@$@#@!$#%!!!
bad words!! bad words!! bad words!!
stupid ppl!! throw our face!! D:

ok.. felt better after scolded out =p
ignore those stupid ppl,
i had a great time meeting my beloved kim gary lovers,
hope we can meet again soon,
but we do meet soon,
coz we are going to melaka on 18 dec :)
cant wait for tht day~~

will always appreciate the happy time we had together,
i hope we can stay so close no matter wad,
no matter how old we are,
love u all so much :)

with l0ves۰•
theng

10:51 PM | Saturday, November 7, 2009 | 0 Comment

mind killer

its unusual for me to stay awake on tis time,
normally i was sleeping on my warmth bed,
dreaming my prince charming...

but today is a different day..
duno y i din feel sleepy at all,
even though its already 1am

many things pop out in my mind..
chee always says i m too sensitive,
i always like to think negatively,
i always like to think tis n tht,
but everything tht i thought is relate to our future,
even though it hasn't happen,
but it doesn't mean it won't happen!!

why can't he understand??
why cant he become more mature??
why i m the only 1 tht always worry tis n tht??
i wonder did he ever think of our future??

but lately he did treat me well,
become very caring,
and he made commitment with me,
and he said he will try his best to do it,
i hope he can keep his words..

whenever u think of our future,
it always become a blank page,
imagine a guy which already 24 yrs old,
gonna turn 25 next year,
still so immature, still no saving,
can commit to him for the rest of my life??

sometime i felt like i m very realistic,
but ppl r realistic,
since marriage life is abt commitment,
is about sense of security,
for me no house means no sense of security,
but the most important is his immature!!
how to build our own family in future??

i duno wad to do n wad to say anymore,
these thought are killing my mind!!
its gonna boom soon!!

should i continue??
or should i let go??
tis retarded relationship..

with l0ves۰•
theng

12:59 AM | | 0 Comment

落榜

现在的心情非常低落，
好久没有这种感觉了，
想当年这种感觉出现在我读书时期，
常常在成绩出炉的时候，
往往都会有一种莫名的失落感

可能我天生就不是一个可以与别人竞争的人，
应该说是不擅长与别人争权争势，
所以才选择一个自以为没有竞争的工作来做，
怎知道，到头来还是一样要与别人争 -.-

之前有提过我申请一个假期师训班，
这是开放给拥有大学文凭的临教申请，
而且名额是非常超级之有限，
今天由于身体不适请了病假，
所以从同事的口中得知我落榜了!!

* 今天起床发现肚子又不听话了，
连续上了两次厕所，
担心到了学校会一样会拉肚子，
所以今天呆在家里拿病假 .__. *

假期师训班与普通师训班有何不同？
假期师训班是在学校假期的时候去读的，
而且平时可以在当临教的学校教书（薪水一样），
但是需要用到大约三年的时间才能完成课程，
毕业后通常会教会当临教侍候的学校，
不用担心被派到“山卡拉”地方教书。
而普通师训班则是政府派你到哪个州上课，
你就得到那个州去上课（薪水比较少），
只需要一年到两年的时间就能完成课程，
然而毕业后必须担心政府把你派到“山卡拉”地方教书，
如果不愿意去，就必须赔钱而且不能再做老师了。

虽然落榜是预料之中的事，
但心中难免还是会觉得很失落，
听说这次是选比较有经验的临教去面试，
要怪只能怪自己经验不足 .__.

这个课程曾经在五年前开放给拥有大学文凭的临教，
如今又公开给我们申请，
是个千载难逢的机会，
却被我错失了这个非常好的良机，
还真的有点不忿 D:

失败乃成功之母，
只要有恒心，铁棒都会磨成针！！
下次一定会有更好的机会的~~

with l0ves۰•
theng

3:28 PM | Monday, November 2, 2009 | 0 Comment

welcome -poor- November

i shall say welcome to -poor- November??
it suppose to be a happy month,
coz its the last month of teaching,
and it will be holidays after tht ^^
but i m lack of money .__.
money not enough D:

spent too much money lately .__.
gonna broke soon,
coz salary will release on end of november,
and now is the beginning of november!!

due to last month was Deepavali,
government released salary in the beginning of october,
so that the indian government worker hv enough money to celebrate,
made me tis month so broke, hv to wait till end of november T__T

today went to eat dim sum as breakfast with big sis and ai wei,
after that went to bookshop buy stationary,
den we went to Econsave buy grocery,
when we finished bought all those grocery,
we saw an optic shop got promotion,
ai wei wana make glasses, so i oso shun bian make a new glasses,
the promotion price is RM199 included frame and glasses,
but mine is more expensive, need RM450,
coz my shortsighted and flash (duno eng call wad =x) very high,
haihs, like tht wasted RM450 liao T__T

only 1 sunday can used so many money -.-
my money flew away..
*ka ching*.. flew~~~
sobs sobs .__.

with l0ves۰•
theng

4:57 PM | Sunday, November 1, 2009 | 2 Comment