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朋友与我...

以前当别人问你朋友与我，
你会毫不犹豫地选我，
现在的你却毫不犹豫地选择朋友，
我应该感到开心的，
因为你是个有情有义的人？
可是为什么一点开心的感觉都没有？

外面的烟花声证明了马来人新年的到来，
也显示了马来人们喜悦的气氛，
然而却一点也感染不到我。
一个人面对着四面冰冷的墙，
一个人听着悲伤的情歌，
一个人在一间空荡的家，
我应该感到开心，
因为我可以为所欲为

有谁能够明白我的感受？
曾经觉得很幸运能够遇到你，
曾经以为我什么都不用说，
因为总有一天你会明白的，
曾经认为你是我的指南针，
曾经的曾经，如今变成往事，
希望可以回到过去那个单纯的我们
可能吗？

我现在才明白，
原来我是一个不被重视的人，
哈哈，真可悲...

with l0ves۰•
theng

1:26 AM | Friday, September 10, 2010 | 0 Comment

to do..

my blog was dead for few months =x
was busy with my study life lately,
was offered by government to study teacher course,
which i wished for so long,
although the course is not as wad i wished for,
but teaching in kindergarden is almost the same
as teaching in primary school (i guess),
wad to do? since i had been offered to teach kindergarden .__.

there is a huge gap between me and dafeiyangq,
since i got tis teacher course offered,
and since he changed his job,
he is working as a "supervisor" in a factory,
and he is very busy for his work everyday,
included saturday and sunday .__.
and he started to smoke since he changed tis job,
or mb b4 he changed tis job??
i was disappointed with him coz he knew i super duper hate ppl smoke!
he promised not to smoke in front of me,
but i still cant accept the fact tht he is smoking! haihs..

due to both of us r in our busy life,
we lack of communication,
and we always quarrel,
bcoz he smokes? bcoz he busy?
bcoz my temper? bcoz we r in different line?
i am a future teacher, and he smokes -.-
and he talk bad words..
problems keep occuring and we din overcome it,
we seem like nth now, but how abt future?

yday he told me tht he has to learn many things in short time,
coz his boss feels like his fren is better than him,
although he work longer than his fren,
i duno y his boss got such feeling?
juz bcoz his fren noe more machines than him?
then how abt admin jobs?
he seems nth when he told me these things,
but i can feel tht he is very stress from his voice,
he is trying so hard for our future (i guess? or mb his future?),
and how abt me? what can i do?
i was like keep blaming him for being busy,
i cant even help him anything,
the only thing tht i can do is to stay by his side,
and support him no matter wad (not included smoking)

he always keep his problem and face it alone,
mb he duwan me to worry him,
and i feel so guilty for not helping him,
and still need him to worry me,
i juz hope tht he is not giving himself too much pressure,
and hope he know that i will always support him :)

with l0ves۰•
theng

10:41 PM | Wednesday, September 8, 2010 | 0 Comment

again..

been constrained for a long time,
trying to stop myself from blogging,
i noticed that my blog was full of unhappy things,
should post some happy things here,
but happy memories do passed quickly,
why sad memories always motionless??

lately, emotion turns up and down easily,
can be happy at this moment,
but few seconds later, become very down.
is it because of the work pressure?
or is it because of...........

lately, sky keep raining,
is it because it knew my feelings?
or is it the end of the world coming??
water accompany me all the times,
is it tears? no! its not, just too much water..
have to release some for it to become balance

lately, many thoughts appeared in my mind,
good and bad thoughts mixed up,
made me felt dizzy, my head gonna exploded,
am i thinking too much?
yes, you always said so and always sing that song,
but you never continue the lyrics..

lately, love to download songs,
maybe songs are the only thing i can rely,
songs can release ones stress,
and also provide physical and mental relaxation :)

with l0ves۰•
theng

12:38 AM | Monday, March 15, 2010 | 0 Comment

m0r0se

although its weekend,
but i totally no weekend mood,
coz i hv to work on Saturday and Sunday!
super sien!!

lately, sch hving exam,
tht means more works to do,
coz hv to mark,
mark till i very pek cek,
coz its very hard 2 giv marks .__.
i hv virtually become very hot temper

no ppl will understand how i feel,
sometime i think its good for me not to exist,
it might be the best solution to avoid quarrels..
sometime favouritism do exist,
both working, but y i cant tired, another one can?
y i cant nap at afternoon, while another can?
y i m the 1 tht always get scolded??
i m the one tht woke up early to work,
while another's working hours is totally diff..
why??!!!!!

work place is like a battlefield,
everyday reach office den work non stop,
time not enough use..

house is like a hotel,
full of cold and cheerless,
my room is the warmest place

disappointed, despair, morose..

with l0ves۰•
theng

8:34 PM | Saturday, March 6, 2010 | 0 Comment

leaving..

gonna leave KL tomorrow,
gonna leave Malaysia tomorrow,
heading to Hatyai, Thailand tomorrow..

was excited and happy for tis family trip,
tis time go with my dad's best fren and his family,
i think it will be a nice trip :)

but y??
y i felt so down now?
y my mood keep swinging??
y i was tired but cant fall asleep??

the longer the time,
the more problems occur..
the more stupid excuses..

i will enjoy tis trip,
i will be happy after i come back :)
yes, i knew i would..

with l0ves۰•
theng

11:17 PM | Wednesday, February 17, 2010 | 0 Comment

crazy day

first time went out wit frens during cny,
went out wit li ling and xiang ling,
first time went to so many shopping center in 1 day,
went to Times Square, Sungei Wang, Pavillion, Megamall

planned to watch movie de,
but the queue super duper longgg!!!
even we went for so many shopping center oso cant buy any ticket,
all sold out or selling fast .__.

but we do enjoyed ourself very much,
by taking photos through those shopping centers,
got abt 200 plus photos in my camera,
xiang ling oso took some photos =x

not we zi lian,
is juz a way to spend our time,
since 3 of us super free,
and oso bothered by some wu liao thgs

its fun to go out wit frens sometime,
although its abit crazy and tiring,
but i was happy when i hanging with them,
at least i no need to bother so many thgs at the moment :)

happy plus crazy day,
the consequence of it = legs pain .__.

with l0ves۰•
theng

11:10 PM | Tuesday, February 16, 2010 | 0 Comment

Happy CNY & Velentine Day

first year valentine and Chinese New Year r in the same day,
another year cant celebrate valentine with him,
mb he felt relieved coz no need to think wad to buy,
or no need to fan how to celebrate??
but i think as long as he treat me good,
its already ok liao, rite?? maybe..

went to my grandma's hse at Jhor Bahru for reunion dinner,
saw many free pretty fireworks,
those fireworks like no need money like tht,
so many and so beautiful,
was thinking if watch at beach will be more romantic :)

came back to kl on Chu 1,
was super tired coz fall sick =.=
cough, sore throat and a bit fever,
bought some medi to eat,
hope it will recover soon .__.

was so upset coz my hp dropped on the floor,
it has a crack at the screen,
consider big crack coz from left to right T__T
so heart pain to see it when i use my hp,
but still hv to use it coz no money to buy a new 1 .__.

tis cny will be very bz,
coz 2ml is daddy's birthday,
chu 3 mb go out shopping,
chu 4 mb go chee's hse bai nian,
chu 5 - chu 8 need to go Hatyai..

cant wait to go Hatyai,
coz i wana buy many thgs =x
n oso wana eat many thgs~~~
hope cough and sore throat will leave me alone!!!!

with l0ves۰•
theng

11:17 PM | Sunday, February 14, 2010 | 0 Comment